My dog died over break. That definitely sucked. Please don't comment and tell me how sorry you are; I don't wish to relieve it every day. I appreciate all good thoughts you guys send toward me and I will accept them graciously. I just... don't want to talk about it. I loved Ranger and I have good memories but I need some time to heal.
In other news, I have $70 to my name right now, and that's only because I worked over break. If I hadn't worked (like I'd been planning) I would officially be in the negative integers now as far as cash flow is concerned. I've been thinking about things lately and I've realized that I have to get a job next semester. It doesn't have to be as involved as transferring the the Wegmans in Johnson City; I think I might be eligible for work study next year, and if I am I'm going to get a job in the library or something. If not, I'll find something. They've got a recruitment page on Binghamton's website. Since I'm not being productive otherwise, I'll swing over there tonight and have a look.
The loan I have to take out next semester is going to be ridiculously large. I'll have to sit down this summer and try to calculate how much my bill will be, based on this semester alone. This semester's tuition was about $8500-$9000 and FAFSA covered about half, so if I take out $20,000 I should be set. Whatever I have left over can carry into junior year. That's going to be a bitch to pay for... that's the year I want to study abroad in Ireland. I'll probably have to take out the maximum amount on my loan to pay for airfare, tuition, and other shit. Common sense would tell me to stay here because it's cheaper, but I want to go so badly. I want to go see a little bit of the world while I'm still young and able. Once I graduate from college, I definitely won't be able to travel for a long, long time.
I hate money. I should just move to Europe and go to school there. Their college tuition is disgustingly cheap. Bastards. Maybe I'll just stay in Ireland if I like it enough.
I fucking wish...
college
