Happy anniversay

Today would have been our 5 years and 2 month anniversary but now it is just the marking of the first month break up. How depressing. I wrote a whole bunch of stuff on words last night but can't be bothered posting anymore.

To be brief...i was sad, then i accepted the fact that it's over and he did once loved me at the beginning (which made me feel a lil better), but then got confused and sad again when i realized that all the nice things he did was when we were friends at the beginning. Things like messaging me daily saying he misses me and my company when i'm not at school, nightly calls, wanting to meet everyday in spite of the fact that we already do see each other everyday at a school. He still wanted to see me on weekends and would stay after school for hours with me just to walk around and be with me. All of those were before we hooked up.

Everything else ... any nice things if any at all after we hooked up is all hazy right now. I don't think he was loving like that when we hooked up. So yeah. Blah.
I emailed him back before in response to one of his 2 emails he sent a week or two ago. I just said 'yes' when he asked if i was ok and if i moved.

I really don't know what to say to him at all...he moved on...while i hopelessly dragged myself along...what more is there to say. Too many things...too many crazy things over flowing my mind right now...blah.

But i am doing much better...recovering well...=]