It's so odd. my skin feels light and heavy at the same time. my heart hurts so bad, it causes me actual pain.

What should I do? everythings confusing yet so black-and-white simple these days. I don't even know what to think without the fear of being criticized. I'm so confused. lost yet walking straight without knowing if it's the right direction. Even the words I type are starting to sound like my poetry. and that means I'm really starting to feel what I speak for.

Someone seriously. Be random and make me feel needed. knock on my door. don't say a word, just hold me for hours whiule I tell you everything that's on my mind, about the things I should have done, the things I shouldn't have said, and everything else.

-Alex