So My grandfather died last week.
I still don't know if the grief has really hit me, because the first couple of days after, I was really depressed, but its like, I can feel that there's more to come. I think it probably won't hit home until my father gets back, and we have the funeral. I feel a deep pain, but its like I still don't know what really happened, especially since it was so sudden. Idk, it just seems so.... surreal, I guess.
French is going fantatsically.
I love my boyfriend. Seriously. I think I do actually know what those first three words mean now.
They make me think of all the things that make me feel warm inside. When I look at him, its like... everything just fades away.
And then he's the only thing or being thats left. And you know what? Its always kind of been like that. I'm only just coming to that realization. Kind of makes me think I had to go through other people in order to have that revelation. It's amazing to think one person has the ability to make me feel all these things. And I would not change one thing about him.
And my ergatta sucked because I was sick for three days before hand. Oh well. I made lightweight by like... 16.5 pounds though. Go me?
The guy doing weigh-ins asked if I was weighing in for coxswain or lightweight though... It was kind of funny.
My latest essay went awesomely. I got an 80% on my last physics test. I think I pretty much owned on my Calculus test. Things seem to definitely be looking up.
MIss R~
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Like Jade said, I hope things get better for you and your family. 
