Yeah, that's kind of how it is with my girl and I. Sometimes I feel this same way, like when will I ever see her again? Will I ever see her again? Will history just simply repeat itself like it seems to so ironically? I dunno...I just hope for the best. But it's funny cause everytime I don't hear from her for awhile, she ends up writing me again. I'm sure you may have even felt that way about someone as well, when you just know that they're the one you would want to spend your life with - but of course some obstacle gets in the way of ensuring that possibility - only to leave you wonder - day in and day out - they say everything happens for a reason....though I'm still looking for the reason behind this happening to me. I know it was a very valid reason for her to leave, the situation was beyond her control after all. I guess this is to see how much love can keep two people together - even if they're not in the physical sense. But like you mentioned, her happiness means more to me than my own - even if it wasn't with me...