Welcome to MindSay!  Great screen name and lovely first entry.

Thanks. I wrote those about two or three years ago.

holy fuck i cannot believe you are 14...  your intuition must provide what your experience lacks...  but don't let your intuition go unexamined, and don't let your pride (at being smarter than most anyone) affect your decisions and feelings...  and don't be in a hurry to "grow up" (don't know why i'm feeling the need to give such a one such advice, but hey, it's free, so take it or leave it)...  as you might have surmised, adulthood does not denote any level of comprehensive comprehension...  it's all an intricate ruse, so don't tumble headlong into it...  a little meditation and critical/objective thinking at your age would be a good investment for your future state of mind...  question everything...  but of course you probably know all the bollocks i just told you, and so the best advice i could give you would be to keep on keeping on...  do your thing 

Thanks. I don't know how many times I've been told that, but don't worry, just because I'm a slight adult doesn't mean I'm not a kid as well. I could go on and on about this huge sob-story about how I really had no chance at childhood because I had to be a Mother before myself, but I won't. It's too boring to even bother reading. But thanks for the advice, and I'll try not growing any faster then I should.... Although it may be a little too late in some cases...