Hugs, hugs, hugs, hugs.

When you say you have no one to talk to how many Christian friends have you got?  It's so important to be connected and have people lay their hands on you and pray for you.

Otherwise, given you're studying psychology is there any lecturer who might have advice?  There's nothing wrong in getting that sort of help.  It'd be like having cancer and not seeing a doctor.

In the meantime

Seek God.  Tell Him what you're going through, and be honest about it;

Cry;

Feed on the Word, especially Psalms and

Rebuke Satan.  You might be under a little attack there.

Rejoice in God right now.  Even thank Him for what you're going through because He's developing your character.  It hurts now but it will come good, and when it does you'll be stronger and closer to God.  You have such a wonderful and beautiful heart and i believe that you will bless many people.

Though He brings grief, He will show compassion, so great is His unfailing love.  - Lam 3:32

You have seen, O Lord, the wrong done to me.  - Lam 3:59

Be strong, and smile because He loves you.

With love from Dave .

 you  feel  as if your in this corner looking out   but no one  sees you

  you feel  raw inside  but there is no relief

 you feel like you do not exsist  just  suspended in time

you do not feel like you..

..

 all i can do is offer hugs..

 i too  have been there  lots of  time..