Argh

Why is it that the net friend I care about most is so fucked up?  It seems like every other day she's deleting her gallery on DeviantArt or deleting her LJ or something equally stupid, because she has all these crazy paranoia self-esteem issues.  At first it made me sad.  Like she didn't care enough about our friendship that it could save her from feeling she needed to do these things.  Then I was scared.  She made me worry about her and her frequent urges to cut off all contact with her friends.  Now she just pisses me off.  I see a line through her LJ or a '0' for her number of deviations and I just want to say 'fuck you, let's not be friends anymore, I can't take all this bullshit', but she's my friend and when I'm away from her I feel like less of myself.  I'm not as happy, but, then again, I'm not as frustrated.  Sometimes you just can't win.