friends and familyokay so what's been going on recently i've been listening to techno and r&b and i'm just trying to deal with life... one day at a time... yesterday i met up with tracy (my recruiter) she got me sick! lol but it's okay... i don't mind it that much... it's just a sore throat and a headache... lol but then again i've had this headache for a while now... i'm done with weed... i'm done with a few things that i didn't really want to be done with but whatever... meh it's not like paul and i would've really worked out in the end anyway... i'm sure he's happier without me in his life bugging him all of the time... so i haven't been straightening my hair... i kind of like it down now... lol with a new year comes a new me i guess... i guess it's by choice but then again it's also for the navy... well for my future i guess...what's 8 weeks and then 5 years? its my life right? i guess... but the people i want in it.. don't want me to go.... and tracy helped me realize i can't always do what makes people happy... and if i really wanted to be happy... i'd have to make that sacrafice.... and a few others.... until i'm truely happy... guys come and go... i've come to learn that... but in my family... we have the worst luck with love... lol what if i end up like my mom? two of her boyfriends died.... what if i end up like my grandma her husband cheated on her... they were married for twenty-five years... but the one person i really like right now... i guess he likes me too but iono about that really... he says he likes me ...
i would give anything to be happy right now... to have someone who'll always be there.. it doesn't have to be a boyfriend or whatever... it can just be a friend... and when i did have someone i took them for granted... and i'm sorry... and i know that i can't go back in time and change anything... but if i could i would... i don't regret anything from last year except for like going to the mental hospital... well no.. i can't even say that because i would've never met my friend eli... or anyone really...
well i am officially feeling like shit right now... with body aches and headaches and a bad hip... lol so i'm going to drink some orange juice and then take a shower to cool off, i can't really tell if i have a fever or if it's just my hands because they're cold but like you can tell if you have a fever or not... i hope dustin gets up soon because i really want to go sign up for 24 hour fitness... i need to get out of this house more... and that'll give me the perfect excuse to get out... and then i'll also start doing something i really want to do too... besides joining the navy that is... lol i know it's like impossible to lose more than like 10 pounds in like a month but i'm going to try... but then again muscle also weighs more than fat... so i'll have to be like careful... lol meh... who cares... i just have to remember to workout my core and not my legs or arms lol since that's where i really need to work that out... but then again i've never really had a flat stomach... i was born chubby... lol i'm just sick of it lol after 17 years... wouldn't you be too?
i would give anything to be happy right now... to have someone who'll always be there.. it doesn't have to be a boyfriend or whatever... it can just be a friend... and when i did have someone i took them for granted... and i'm sorry... and i know that i can't go back in time and change anything... but if i could i would... i don't regret anything from last year except for like going to the mental hospital... well no.. i can't even say that because i would've never met my friend eli... or anyone really...
well i am officially feeling like shit right now... with body aches and headaches and a bad hip... lol so i'm going to drink some orange juice and then take a shower to cool off, i can't really tell if i have a fever or if it's just my hands because they're cold but like you can tell if you have a fever or not... i hope dustin gets up soon because i really want to go sign up for 24 hour fitness... i need to get out of this house more... and that'll give me the perfect excuse to get out... and then i'll also start doing something i really want to do too... besides joining the navy that is... lol i know it's like impossible to lose more than like 10 pounds in like a month but i'm going to try... but then again muscle also weighs more than fat... so i'll have to be like careful... lol meh... who cares... i just have to remember to workout my core and not my legs or arms lol since that's where i really need to work that out... but then again i've never really had a flat stomach... i was born chubby... lol i'm just sick of it lol after 17 years... wouldn't you be too?
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