I'm at the point where I want to just pinch my nose, close my eyes and go under and the next time I come up for air I'll be showered in beautiful sunlight like from a sun that plays hide and seek in early May or September.

Although it's the middle of winter and all things around me have gone dormant--including some humans--I can't help the feeling of excitement that jolts my system. I cant imagine being more 'awake' or 'alive' than right at this moment.