There is a lot about me that people don't get...noone really knows the "real me"...not that I am fraudulent by any means, but I am still kind of figuring things out for myself. By the time I was 18, I had been living on my own for 2 years...finishing highschool and working full time. I moved in with someone that I thought was "the one" and it turned out that he was not only a horrible husband, but a fraud as well... I contributed my marriage and subsequent divorce to a life lesson of a naive teenager. I didn't have the means or support system to get out of a bad situation, so I basically lived nomadically for about 6 months before I was able to get another apartment. Life went on, I made several more bad choices, but that became life lessons as well. Right now, I am sitting...not exactly content with where life has led me. Am I unhappy? No, not exactly...but I am not satisfied with life either. I miss having a life of my own...I realize, this sounds weird..."It is your life...do with it as you will". I know, I know...the thing is, I want more...not materialistic possesions...that isn't what I mean. I want to feel "whole"...I don't know why I feel like I am not, but something feels like its missing in my life, and I can't quite put my finger on it. What do you do in a situation like this? I feel like I am being held back. From what, I don't know...I think that there may be something in store for me...it just hasn't happened yet. Maybe someday I will figure it out...I hope it is sooner, rather than later.