Before age 12, I know, there were two and possibly three times I suffered severe brain concussions. Both, the ones I am aware of, involved my head striking concrete which caused unconsciousness and memory loss.

The first occured when I was maybe, maybe...maybe...I, Ireally don't know now that I stop to think of it.  Was it that they happened so close together that I may have been the same age for both? Could be.

Be that as it may I will not dwell on it here now because my inability discern the chronology and my ages at the time is really disconcerting for me. Indeed, it is upsetting bordering on nausea.

This matter has been a frequent topic of intrapersonal conversations [me talking to me] over time. My quandry is: to what degree, if any, have those two severe concussions impacted my mental ability and or capacity in cognigtive, emotional, intelligence or whatever functionality.

Truly, I feel strongly that I am lacking in some, if not several, realms of mental functioning. I find or have found, over the years, that somethings are beyond my comprehension when it seems, to me anyway, it seems others or even "everybody knows that" as some Chinese friends here are wont to and quick to point out. Yes, I often feel stupid about various things.  Yes, often and vividly consciously so.

It is like, "Why don't I know this? Why can't I comprehend this thing? If it is so clear to others why is my cognition so muddled?"   Then the adverse of all these questions is true. I mean, like: "If I know this thing to be so why do not others understand it as I do? Why is I can comprehend this and others are so mystified?" Like that; ya know?  - David

ps: DTG 08282249  I should mention the fact that coincidential to the concussions I was also belittled, demeaned and ridiculed by a sick, demented, emotionally and physically cruel abuse father who tagged me as "dizzy" and "stupid" with both vehemence and pleasure on his part.   - David

pps: DTG 08282257:33 Some causeality or significance to be attached to such treatmnet and upbringing? Ya think? Huh?     - David