Rugby versus religion.

Go to church or play matches..... My mother's going to resent me, pray for me, be disappointed.... But it's my choice as an adult, and at the moment I feel like I've lost faith in the church, and in it's members. I will always love God, but I'm struggling with a lot of theological questions that I can't find the answer to in the church, and don't feel as if they even can be answered the way I want them to be. And that scares me.