My life is a wreck.

I've been getting high for the past 2 weeks straight. It's either smoking a couple bowls or downing rum with a couple sleeping pills. For the first time in my life I've actually had nothing to worry about; utter tranquility. I know what I'm doing is destructive, but it's a step above daily life anymore. I'm only happy when I'm dreaming. If I knew of a way to sleep more than 24 hours in a day I'd be doing it right now. I have the greatest of dreams after smoking a blunt. I've never had a better nights rest before I started drinking rum and taking sleeping pills.  It flushes away all my bad thoughts and the euphoria is downright orgasmic.

I can't take everyone's pressure anymore...if this is the alternative to suicide, I feel I can cope rather well.
 
   

 


 
 
Azhur on
Re: The alternative to Suicide: drugs, pills, and alcohol.
Hi, buddy.

Well, it's Tuesday evening in UK, abut 7pm.  My art studio went well and Obi Wan's well on the way.  I'll be checking this screen through the evening, so I hope I'll catch you.  see ya.

Ian

Azhur on
Re: The alternative to Suicide: drugs, pills, and alcohol.
Sorry missed you when you logged on.  Try again today, okay?  Look after yourself and see you later.

Ian.

Azhur on
Re: The alternative to Suicide: drugs, pills, and alcohol.
Hey, are you there?  You logged in 7 miutesago!

Ian

Azhur on
Re: The alternative to Suicide: drugs, pills, and alcohol.
Hi!   Hi!   Hi!   Ian's online!
Azhur on
Re: The alternative to Suicide: drugs, pills, and alcohol.
Hi, Morelost.  Hope you're ok.   Ian
Azhur on
Re: The alternative to Suicide: drugs, pills, and alcohol.
Morelost, it's Ian.  Are you there?
morelost on
Re: The alternative to Suicide: drugs, pills, and alcohol.
I don't know anymore...

I know you're trying to help me, but I don't know if I can be helped.
Azhur on
Re: The alternative to Suicide: drugs, pills, and alcohol.
are you there?  it's ian

 
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