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You still there Buddy?
Ian
Yeah I'm here.....
I won't judge you 
Your welfare is most important
Did you seriously intend to suicide, or to call for help to get the admission to hospital?
Your welfare is most important Did you seriously intend to suicide, or to call for help to get the admission to hospital?
I don't know what I was thinking today....It was the first time I ever acted on the thought of cutting my wrist. I think about it all the time, but this week was just more than I could handle, especially the day that crazy german woman treated me like shit for no reason. I had a panic attack that night and just couldn't take it anymore.
I'm not sure what to suggest in honesty, perhaps do something you enjoy perhaps - like a video game - to take your mind off it, or just nap Do you think you might do it again or is it too early to say? - a lot of these things - they're awkward or unpleasent at the time, but they pass - and if she had no reason to treat you like shit, it shouldn't be you who takes the wrap for it - blame it on her, not you
Do you think you might do it again or is it too early to say? - a lot of these things - they're awkward or unpleasent at the time, but they pass - and if she had no reason to treat you like shit, it shouldn't be you who takes the wrap for it - blame it on her, not youthe crazy woman was just the last straw on the camels back...it was a culmination of 12 years of depression and then a huge panic attack to end it all. My mom has called me 8 times in the past four minutes and I haven't picked up...I sent them an email asking to please come home, so the hysteria has already set in. I know she's freaking out right now scared as hell or probably even mad because I won't pick up. But it's 1am where I'm at and it's only 6pm back home.....
Hi, buddy. Sorry I missed you earlier. You still there? Ian
Hi, buddy. Sorry I missed you earlier. You still there? Ian
Can you let the past go? You don't have to let it cumulate - just look at it as an individual problem of that time - that'll get buried with time once it's gone - those 12 years can't hurt you anymore - you're only practically affected by what's around you now. I know it was late, and no pressure to you if it feels difficult, but it's understandable that they'd be worried - have you tried to get in contact since? - At some point you'll have to, although it is painful it might be less so the earlier you get it out the way - you must be a little worried about them too... and wouldn't want them to be left worried, right?
I wont ask, but I'm just here as someone who has also done it... trying to stop..ish.
No one seems to care anymore so I figure why bother. It sounds bad, and it is bad... but I guess I just stopped caring as well. I no longer feel guilty.
I wear long sleeve shirts anyways... the wounds don't heal that fast, perhaps you could make up some medical thing? Needles.. doctor. I don't know. Just for the nosy people, or (like I would) tell them it's none of their damn business.
I hope you get better...Ever wanna talk, I'm here if you like.
No one seems to care anymore so I figure why bother. It sounds bad, and it is bad... but I guess I just stopped caring as well. I no longer feel guilty.
I wear long sleeve shirts anyways... the wounds don't heal that fast, perhaps you could make up some medical thing? Needles.. doctor. I don't know. Just for the nosy people, or (like I would) tell them it's none of their damn business.
I hope you get better...Ever wanna talk, I'm here if you like.
It's good that you're taking the steps to get better, and know that you need that. I've had an aunt struggle for many many years with depression and suicide because it's hard for her to take that first step that she needs to get help. Its good to go to help outside yourself and your friends and get an outside opinion. Stay strong.
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