im really sorry..... I'm really sorry I misunderstood your blog... I am extremely sorry for getting on the defensive and automatically blowing up without even asking you what you meant.... I'm really sorry.... please understand that I dictated what you said into an attack on me... and Friday was a very hard day for me... and I wanted to tell you about it... and then I read what I did and just automatically assumed you were talking about me because you might have been angry with me because I got to go home... please don't say you've lost respect for me... because if I wasn't sorry... and if I didn't feel the least bit guilty for blowing up... I wouldn't try to apologize... I love you Ali and I cherish your friendship... If you can forgive me I can definately promise to work on my defensive actions.... I extremely over reacted ... I Childlishly over reacted... and I didn't even think to see what was troubling you... I want to be here for you at this hardship moment in your life... please don't push me away... I didn't mean what I said.... I didn't mean anything that would've made you think I was attacking you.... I'm really sorry Please forgive me... and I didn't mean what I said to make you think I purposely crashed your car... I would do anything to take back that day... but it can't happen... I'm sorry about your grandpa... I hope I have friends like you by my side to comfort me when the same happening comes along... I want to be there.

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I also want you to know, that even if I'm being a cock... and you need the day off... you can still come to me and ask for it off.

You know I will talk to you whenever you need someone to talk to.  I love you.  It is always hard losing a close relative...

Ali, I'm so sorry you have to go through this, I know how hard it can be. I know how scary and confusing and uncertain the future can seem, and if you ever need help making your way through the clouds, you know where I am... or at least generally... since I don't think you've seen my dorm, but yes. Call on me any time you need me, and if I hear the call, I'll be there to answer it. I love you and always will, no matter how many miles or years separate us. I'll say a prayer for you. Chin up.

thanks... kate is comign into town this weekend that should be nice maybe we'll stop by the homecomign game...