1 Riddle

Compelled to be a good son, I am a cruel brother.
I am a cruel friend.
Compelled to be a good father, I am a cruel husband.
Loveless, I love my mother.
I love friends.
Made wonderful friends, I desire lovers.
Presto! Twelve desire sends.
Beautiful, loving, and young, they fuck me.
I can't say no.
I am a God-damned fucking so and so.
Who am I?

2 Rhyme

Trapped in his immoral life
He betrayed his loving wife
Hurting her he hurt their kids
Their daughter, their son
Lost in lies, sickening whys
Wrenching cries, helpless sighs
Undisguised by philosophy
He denied
    
    Sorry?
    Worry?

His wounded soul
Unwhole, adjusted
Cynical, he sinned again
Openly lusted
He cheated, repeatedly
He treated his wife like dirt
He laughed if she hurt
Party clown, professor
He professed, “Friends.”
He aimed his life towards them
His life controlled his wife

Sex was how it all began
Little did he understand
Fourteen masturbated
Fifteen kissed
Sixteen sex
Seventeen “missed”
Eighteen pregnant teen
Marriage “had to”
A girl, a boy
Sister, brother, mother
Loved him, trusted
He hid, haunted, hunted, lusted
Drank, flirted, fornicated
Adulterer, liar
Lie-encrusted
Came home drunk
Untorn, unsated
Unsad, glad to
Stinking, Mr. Skank

Dark night
Bright tiny dream light
Moon white
Buddhists entered in
He confessed, he vowed reform
“No more sin!”
He prayed, he bowed
He practiced, he tried
He wanted to conform
He loved his wife, her warm
He loved their kids, their fun
He wanted to be good
Why couldn’t he do
What he knew he should?

Marriage, children, broken home
Divorce, dead horse, ruined carriage
Tragic poem

 
 
   

 


 
 
bahamat on
Re: RIDDLE and RHYME
There's clearly regret as a topic I think... I think the moment someone regrets, there's a new beginning, since they've changed there's no sense in continued self-judgement and reflection, because they're simply not the same person anymore... but sometimes we regret unnecessarily - was it such a bad thing whatever we did? - were there good intentions behind it? - like it said at the beginning, this person wanted to be a good son, father, etc - and it reminds me of my dad's view of discipline - even if it was more than necessary they had good intention- because they thought it'd be good for them in the long run, like the bad-tasting mediciene that makes something better that would've become much bigger had it been allowed (like money problems), even if they don't realise the intention to appreciate it.
Looking back on my dad, I know how it is, when knowing what we know about life we can't always in good concience stand by and allow someone to make a mistake even if it's their will... we can't stop them but we try to advise them, but in doing so, maybe it's not such a mistake they're making

Only a good person could self-criticise. It's a somewhat rare ability. This person is clearly torn by what they do now know about people's feelings... this person has concience. They can't change events of the past, but that past nolonger applies to them since they've changed, but they could I guess in some cases get back in contact with the people from the past and hope they acknowledge and accept, if they don't, that's their fault for not being open, though caution would be understandable, as would be needing to see for themselves. Mistakes are an acceptable part of being human... they're how we learn... the hard way is much harder, but also much deeper, I've made some myself - like I really regret not dating when I had the chance, I hated myself for turning away genuine love over much shallower things like attraction... but I realise I didn't know then what I know now. I wish I could go back sometimes, but that was how I learnt. I sometimes wonder if I'm doing the right thing when I try to prevent people like xians learning life the hard way - looking back when they died and realising they wasted it, because if they did learn that way it would be deeper in memory... but as long as they learn one way or another I guess it's ok... because I guess the memories that set the context of what we know don't carry forward in reincarnation even if learning does.... we are who we are now... how we got there doesn't need to matter now.

Also, I'm honoured to be shown
misterskank on
Re: RIDDLE and RHYME
I wrote the poem in psychological terms the first time, then went back and replaced them with my parents' old-fashioned language of Christian morality and sin.

An exorcism.
bahamat on
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In what way an excorcism plz?
misterskank on
Re: RIDDLE and RHYME
A purging of guilt, regret, shame, in the language and ideology of such an attitude toward sex, just getting it all out of my system without excuses.
bahamat on
Re: RIDDLE and RHYME
It's good that it's worked I wouldn't've thought of letting it out! - as it's been so long since I vented much lol - forgetting has become my way lol, but hell, whatever works! You can keep a past that way
misterskank on
Re: RIDDLE and RHYME
I learned my philosophy of sex in the 60s -- sex between or among consenting competent adults is nobody's business but their own. I've never heard a better one.
bahamat on
Re: RIDDLE and RHYME
As a personal and intimite thing, yeah, or even their business as just how they enjoy themselves. I sometimes wish sex could be open, public and communal, like handshakes or hugs - if there were no barriers towards peope getting some there might not be as many insecurities around it, it wouldn't be so taboo, wouldn't be mistaken for love, maybe there'd be less rape if people didn't need to OR if they did get raped it'd be no bigger deal than tickelling or something - so there wouldn't be distress and they wouldn't get killed after or anything. Of course protected + hygenic though!
bahamat on
Re: RIDDLE and RHYME
oh and also guys hopefully wouldn't try to trick girls emotionally into sex if they could get some from them easily anyway without having to do it - if it was open + honest, better for the women
misterskank on
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Getting raped no big deal? Forced, without consent? Ugh.

bahamat on
Re: RIDDLE and RHYME
Less of a big deal if they didn't feel dirty/violated so much through it. Forced againsst will is always a bad thing, but there are other things in life too where we have no choice, or that happen against our will... the experience is made worse because sex is so sorta hidden and personal, and people might rape less if sex was more easily accessabile, wrong as rape is in the first place

 
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