don't you love it when life throws you those random curve balls? like its saying, "i've got pms, don't mess with me." this past week it feels everything has been going not necessarily wrong, but going in directions that i have not expected. and anyone who knows me, would know that i crave stability. yes, i like the spontinaity of hanging out and doing random things, but for real things in life i need stability. i need stability with really close friends, with living situations, and financially. that is why this past week has been particularily frustrating. it has felt as if everything i held as being stable has vanished. one of the two big things that has happened this week is that my financial aid package isnt all that it was cracked up to be. now i have to choose between the school and people i love or drowning myself in mass amounts of debt. because i honestly dont see the point of spending this much for tuition on something im only 50% sure i want to be doing with my life. i would rather go to north hennipen and work, while i decide my course of action. i told this to my roomies the other day because i was balling my eyes out. they helped me realize simply by being there that i should probably stay here. i absolutely love the people here and all the opportunities that arise throughout the year. i couldn't leave them, no matter how practical the other option seems.
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