Time for an emo 'blog post!
Work is getting me down. I feel as though there is not enough time to do everything, so instead I do nothing. Does that sound like the appropriate action? No? Well, I happen to agree there. I'd rather knock off the most important jobs and then the next most and... you get the idea. Instead, I'm wallowing in misery avoiding all of my problems, be they work- or life-related and ultimately digging a deeper hole than already existed. Bad idea? Yes. How bad? Very.
Work is interesting. There is a lot of it, but I could get it out of the way if I wasn't doing things like this. This is exactly what I'm talking about. I've even identified it and I'm still doing it. Is there a term for that? I know about procrastination - I am its master in all forms - however it seems like something more this time. Self-destruction? Maybe. Is it intentional? I can't answer that myself. However, it may be worth noting that more than a few of my activites are self-destructive, or at the least actively inactive. Intentionally avoiding all issues, important or otherwise.
Mm, a psychologists dream? Perhaps. Maybe I just need to look at my own dreams and aspire to reach them. If I had that motivation then what couldn't I do? Not a lot, I think.
-Mitch
