I down another glass of black drink...
to forget the thoughts that you link...
but within all of the talk of small...
I think of you, and I ball...
I miss the times you smile...
I think all of your rile...
Your wickedness when your hot...
the silence of when I'm not...
You filled a gap within my soul...
one that I thought could never be whole...
It has turned my world upside down...
Ripped the jewels from my crown...
I sit on the side of a street...
watch the people pass without a peep...
And leu I can't think of any other than you...
I stumble through the dark only for you...
For days my life has been shambles...
my life is nothing close to ample...
I don't know if my choice was right...
all I know is I feel like shite...
I've worn a frown...
but never so down...
I felt like walking off a roof...
to rid the feeling of bieng aloof.
I felt like walking in front of a truck...
down by 4th and C in front of the Pawn Shop...
My heads torn itself through and through...
I could care less of anything but you...
Though its my third strike, low and to the left...
I know you shouldn't forgive, probably for the best...
I want to call you, but I fear the answer...
For I don't want to know, even if your sure...
If you take me into your arms...
I don't know if I'll cause the same alarm...
But if you refuse me once and for all...
I may never recover from this fall...
I am the worst situation that you could come across...
I am nothing more than a soul, ever so lost...
I would only bring you down...
and make you feel so wronged...
I don't know what it is I feel...
It makes me miss every meal...
It probably twists the way you feel...
I am sorry, I don't know why...
I never mean to ever lie...
But all I ever do know is think of you and sigh...
I am totally a mess...
poetry
