*bear hugs you*

i know....i know

1tinkerbelle or uhohadaisy

It's ok

Although I don't have any direct answers, you can get out of it, when you find a new way to cope and a new cause to live for, and learn to care less about stuff that bothered you. For me it's using my own experiences of the bad times to (at least) try to help, so that nobody has to face that alone - that makes something good come out of bad experiences, and it gives me purpose + it must mean something in terms of people's feelings. If venting your feelings helps, go ahead, it needs dealing with somehow and nobody has the right to blame you for what you feel (you can't help that) - besides, if you didn't say it, you'd still have felt it, where's the sense in that? - it still exists even if you don't say it, but at least it might help if you do. By all means, say anything at all that might help, hold nothing back, nothing can hurt me, I've grown a thick skin. Sometimes I find the best thing I can do is just lay down + do nothing.
 
I admit that, until you see it for yourself in a person, you just don't know what somebody does/doesn't understand, so I'm not expecting your trust, because you don't know me and like a lot of people I don't know how much I don't know (if that makes sense).
Once whatever was bothering you doesn't matter to you anymore, that same feeling won't come back (not the same one anyway) - people don't suddenly start relying more on things that they didn't before, that can't happen, it goes one way only

Those are my feelings almost entirely. Except it's not my sister, it's an ex best friend. No words to describe how much it hurts.