relationshipsI wanna fcuk. OMFG I wanna fcuk...
I haven't seen my man for more than a month now and I'm horny as fcuk! I'll see him this weekend though... and I dun think we're going to be doin anything, but fcuk all day N fcuk all night... food N sleep in between, but we're going to fcuk! I'll be there for a few days, but I miss him so much and I miss dcik so freakin much! This is starting to sound dirty, I know, but I can't wait!
Now I kinda know why guys get horny or think about sex all the time. Most girls do, too... but guys are so obvious about it. You can literally catch dudes checking you out. Looking at your chest, or your butt, or something! You know they are fcukin looking!
Anyway, so I never see my boyfriend, and from the last entry I posted, things haven't changed. He still hasn't been calling me all that much even though we argue about it all the time, and I think things need to change. I'm seeing him this weekend, and after I fcuk him, the relationship is over. Yeah, it's a bit wrong isn't it? I guess... but if it's not working out, it's not working out! I've told him about my problems, he said he was going to try, he made these promises, and basically, actions are much louder than words. I even warned him that I wasn't gonna look back this time, if I decide to leave, I'm going to leave! Maybe he isn't taking me seriously, but I'm getting tired of it. It gets old, ya know. It's not even like I'm asking for something HUGE, I'm just asking him to call me or text me. I mean, isn't that a given, in a relationship?
He knew I didn't want a relationship, but he kept insisting that things would be different, from the rest of my exes. I had bad relationships. I guess it is my fault, for not building enough will power to cut him off, but he was so sweet and we went through so much together, why not? Even though I "swore" off dudes before I went out with him... he knew about my situation, but he just kept insisting that it'll be different. We've only been together for 4 months? But within those 4 months, and BEFORE we got together, we went through a lot. I gave a lot of me to him, I let my guard down for him, and everything he wanted me to do, I've done for him. Things that I don't do for my exes... like LET GO of me?
Whatever, I'm over it. I can't wait to be single! Yeah, I might be lonely at times, but I already feel like I'm single! I haven't been single for more than a month since sophomore year, of fcukin HS! So I haven't been single for more than 6 years? I just have some what long term relationships... is it sad to say that I use them for sex? Emotions do develop, feelings are there, but most of the time, they are just there for me to fcuk. It's that over slutting myself around and trying to hook up with every guy in the room, when I can just fcuk one guy without even trying. I'm horny, he's there! I like to be physical, with my boyfriend... there has to be a connection, or chemistry, or attraction between us... or it's not gonna happen. I love to touch and feel.. I can't exactly do that with people I'm not attracted to, and I am pretty fcukin picky.
I know, someday, I would be taken, eventually, but as of now, I'm trying to enjoy life and keep my life on track. Maybe fix myself a little bit more instead of chasing dudes...? I just feel like all my relationships have been so fcukin retarded, and I'm a little tired of guys right now. You can say it's the same with girls, too, but why is it when you meet a person, that person doesn't turn out to be who you thought he/she was? Not right in the head? A tad psycho? Somewhere around that area?
I'm not swearing off dudes totally, cuz I need some lovin, too. But NO MORE RELATIONSHIPS PLEASE! Keep it "classy" and keep the ho on the down low... I knoooooooooo... not all guys are the same, and I shouldn't give them a chance jus cuz of my past.. but I don't think it's even about that. I think it's just me, I want this, and I've been in relationships so long, that I don't know how to be fcukin single! FCUK it, yeah it's a lonely world out there, but it'll feel so fuckin good not to answer anyone, no obligations.. ohhhhh snaaaap! dun hate =p
I'm jus down to fcuk... and NO, I'm not a slut, I'm a man! hah!
=p
I haven't seen my man for more than a month now and I'm horny as fcuk! I'll see him this weekend though... and I dun think we're going to be doin anything, but fcuk all day N fcuk all night... food N sleep in between, but we're going to fcuk! I'll be there for a few days, but I miss him so much and I miss dcik so freakin much! This is starting to sound dirty, I know, but I can't wait!
Now I kinda know why guys get horny or think about sex all the time. Most girls do, too... but guys are so obvious about it. You can literally catch dudes checking you out. Looking at your chest, or your butt, or something! You know they are fcukin looking!
Anyway, so I never see my boyfriend, and from the last entry I posted, things haven't changed. He still hasn't been calling me all that much even though we argue about it all the time, and I think things need to change. I'm seeing him this weekend, and after I fcuk him, the relationship is over. Yeah, it's a bit wrong isn't it? I guess... but if it's not working out, it's not working out! I've told him about my problems, he said he was going to try, he made these promises, and basically, actions are much louder than words. I even warned him that I wasn't gonna look back this time, if I decide to leave, I'm going to leave! Maybe he isn't taking me seriously, but I'm getting tired of it. It gets old, ya know. It's not even like I'm asking for something HUGE, I'm just asking him to call me or text me. I mean, isn't that a given, in a relationship?
He knew I didn't want a relationship, but he kept insisting that things would be different, from the rest of my exes. I had bad relationships. I guess it is my fault, for not building enough will power to cut him off, but he was so sweet and we went through so much together, why not? Even though I "swore" off dudes before I went out with him... he knew about my situation, but he just kept insisting that it'll be different. We've only been together for 4 months? But within those 4 months, and BEFORE we got together, we went through a lot. I gave a lot of me to him, I let my guard down for him, and everything he wanted me to do, I've done for him. Things that I don't do for my exes... like LET GO of me?
Whatever, I'm over it. I can't wait to be single! Yeah, I might be lonely at times, but I already feel like I'm single! I haven't been single for more than a month since sophomore year, of fcukin HS! So I haven't been single for more than 6 years? I just have some what long term relationships... is it sad to say that I use them for sex? Emotions do develop, feelings are there, but most of the time, they are just there for me to fcuk. It's that over slutting myself around and trying to hook up with every guy in the room, when I can just fcuk one guy without even trying. I'm horny, he's there! I like to be physical, with my boyfriend... there has to be a connection, or chemistry, or attraction between us... or it's not gonna happen. I love to touch and feel.. I can't exactly do that with people I'm not attracted to, and I am pretty fcukin picky.
I know, someday, I would be taken, eventually, but as of now, I'm trying to enjoy life and keep my life on track. Maybe fix myself a little bit more instead of chasing dudes...? I just feel like all my relationships have been so fcukin retarded, and I'm a little tired of guys right now. You can say it's the same with girls, too, but why is it when you meet a person, that person doesn't turn out to be who you thought he/she was? Not right in the head? A tad psycho? Somewhere around that area?
I'm not swearing off dudes totally, cuz I need some lovin, too. But NO MORE RELATIONSHIPS PLEASE! Keep it "classy" and keep the ho on the down low... I knoooooooooo... not all guys are the same, and I shouldn't give them a chance jus cuz of my past.. but I don't think it's even about that. I think it's just me, I want this, and I've been in relationships so long, that I don't know how to be fcukin single! FCUK it, yeah it's a lonely world out there, but it'll feel so fuckin good not to answer anyone, no obligations.. ohhhhh snaaaap! dun hate =p
I'm jus down to fcuk... and NO, I'm not a slut, I'm a man! hah!
=p
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