My boyfriend and I are going away tomorrow. I think it'll be good for us. He wanted to surprise so he booked a hotel at one of my favorite vacation spots. We'll be staying overnight on the 3rd. I want this relationship to work so I need to start putting more into it.
I still think of the other guy and miss him at work. I'd be lying if I said didn't. I haven't really heard from him. I sent a myspace message last week and he sent back a one line sentance on Saturday. So I didn't respond and have decided not to contact him. He doesn't care about me like that anyway. I need to move on and focus on what I have.
I told my boyfriend that my drinking has gotten out of control again and he said he will support me and go with me to meetings. I dread having to stop again because I know it will be really hard and I will get pissed off becasue other people can drink but I can't because I have a problem. I bought a 12 pk of beer yesterday and I have two small mini wine bottles. Once that is done, probably by Saturday I am done and will go back on the damn Antibuse. Having an addiction sucks.
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