So I've been in a relationship for over a year. I love my boyfriend and he's the best guy I've ever been with but sometimes I don't feel that chemisty and crazy lust. I know that lust fades and companionship endures but sometimes I wonder. We're very serious and will probably be moving in together soon but sometimes I just get confused. I'm at that age where marriage in inevitable and we've talked about marriage. I don't know how to explain how I feel. I guess I always feel restless after being with someone for awhile, even the one person I was completely in love with. Sometimes that thought of getting married and having kids scares me and other times I welcome it with open arms. All my friends are either married with kids or in a relationship. I just sometimes wish I could go back to age 20. I hate feeling and getting old, it's hard to explain....
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