Somewhere around 30 you realize you're an adult- not that you even want to be anymore. God I sometimes wish I could go back to being 18, 19, 20 etc... I wouldn't be in such a hurry to grow up. Becasue after 30 what the hell do you have to look forward to- getting old, working more, not being able to wear clothes you wore when you were younger blah blah blah I could go on. The worst thing about being an adult is work. I don't hold on to the memories of a dream job or exciting career as I did when I was in my 20s. Now I know it ain't gonna happen, its get a pay check, pay bills, enjoy your short weekend and do it all over again- is that exciting or what.?! God I wish I had the money to retire at 30. I would travel the world, be able to afford my hobbies and buy a house.
Today was a really hard day which is making me want to run away. My job just really sometimes suck. I'm not the type of person who slacks off at work or doesn't pull their weight- in fact I'm quite the opposite. I have a strong work ethic but right now there is just so much going on I can't get it all done. I could stay there 12 hours a day and not make a dent. It is so frustrating and annoying. It would be much easier if I had someone to help me but it's like I'm on my old little island- which I wouldn't mind if this were a vacation but it's work.
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