Music rushes memories in and out of my chaotic mind.

I'm certain most people can relate.
Happy, candy-like tunes bring back memories of the ice cream stand in Deputy, summer afternoons and dripping treats and sticky arms. “Our” song, when it unexpectedly reaches our ears, brings back lost loves, romantic moments, and forgotten evenings. Certain other songs bring back the recklessness and rebellion of high school or college. Others call to mind sparkly Christmas trees and long-gone relatives and shiny presents. Maybe it’s that worship song that brings you too tears...

On the way home last night, I said something silly that provoked Josh into singing a line of "Free Fallin'" by Tom Petty.

Baby I'm free... free fallin'

It was a goofy moment but the five words had such an impact on me. It was if a sobering veil swiftly covered my face and I was sucked back over ten years in time...

In the trailer we lived in at the time, Kari and I shared a bedroom right down the short hall from the kitchen. If I mouse hiccuped in there we could hear it. One night I was awoken by a great bit of noise issuing down the hallway. Naturally, I got out of bed to see what all the commotion was. I crept along the tiled floor until I reached the kitchen where I found my parents. My dad had put in Tom Petty's tape and was singing "Free Fallin'" loudly and trying his best to get my mom to join him in a dance. My uncle says my dad despised dancing but after seeing him with my mom I'm sure it was all a front. Who wouldn't want to dance with my mom anyway? She's always been so cute. Anyway, I found it very entertaining watching him grab my mom, her laughing and blushing, and moving in a circular fashion. It's a mar to me of how much they adored one another. I watched for maybe a minute until I was caught spying on them from behind the wall and was herded back to bed...

This is such a uneventful, insignificant memory and yet it has somehow stuck with me over the years. It may not even be worth wasting internet space in a post about, but I feel compelled to write about it anyway. So many times I have glimpses into the past such as these. I feel obligated to get them out somehow, to tell someone about them, to write about them... because I still regrettably hang on the deteriorating belief that if I successfully  relate these memories to someone else or write them down then my dad is alive in someway.



 
 
   

 


 
 
iliketiedye on
Re: Free Fallin'
Great post ......

love the memory .....

Got your email and will answer soon ...... got to run this morning / afternoon ...... but will be back later .....

Peace.  J.
littlecauldron on
Re: Free Fallin'
Thanks a lot. I appreciate that.

And take your time...
iliketiedye on
Re: Free Fallin'
((((hugs))))

Sorry I missed you on IM ..... was in the shower ..... !  Bummed!

Hopefully will catch you later ...... off to Yreka ....

Peace.  J.
callie69 on
Re: Free Fallin'
i like to think that the "insignicant" memories we have do extend our loved ones lives or the wonderful effects they have on our lives. thank you for sharing and giving me the moment to remember mine to ((hugs))
littlecauldron on
Re: Free Fallin'
I agree with you. You really so seem like a spiritual person. It's admirable.

*kisses*
callie69 on
Re: Free Fallin'
you are so sweet ((hugs))

i am not sure how spiritual i am, some would say i am just carnal, but i think there is much more to existence than this human life, we fear the next journey because it is blocked to us. I am not one to depend on the religious groups today to give me my direction and my faith, it comes from my knowledge of life, sacred writings and my intrinsic beliefs. i certainly believe we should enjoy the fruits of this part of our existence; family, love, happiness, understanding that along with these things come loneliness, unhappiness, hate the whole mix of life; knowing without the one the other cannot be understood or enjoyed. I believe we need to be positive, enjoy our family and friends, deal with the negatives as best we can and not let them control and dictate our lives. live each day like it is our last and be thankful and hopeful at the beginning of the next day. Enjoy every thing this life gives us for pleasure making sure it doesn't injure others.

sll&ct *kisses & more*

eyesthefuture on
Re: Free Fallin'
Your best blogs are the ones you do about your Dad.

They make my tears go into "Free Falling" at times.

I hope Melanie can remember me the same way some day.
littlecauldron on
Re: Free Fallin'
It's bittersweet, isn't it? I have a lot fo things liek this floating around upstairs. I don't know... I think it might be better to share them...

I'm sorry if I had your tears "free fallin'" too hard.

If there's one thing I'm sure of its that Melanie already has many happy memories of you. Rachael too! I can tell by the way you speak of her and your pictures and videos of her that she is already building very deep memories of her grandad that she'll pass on to grandkids. Ray, you are so compassionate, so witty and wise... as she grows older it will all stick with her. Trust me. *hugs*
sifa on
Re: Free Fallin'
Yupp, music does that to me too!

Have you tried the Music Genome Project on Pandora.com?  It's brilliant.

 
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