i feel like im losing alot of people, but hey its straight i honestly understand people grow out of things even other people and its fine with me. I will miss them and i will wish them the best but i will not fight the common nature of it and if we happen to stray off and lose each other i will not be mad at them. i will rejoice for the time i did have with them and i will rejoice for the person they helped make me. so many huge people in my life are now gone that another few really is fine with me. i hope they get everything they deserve and they find all the happiness in the world. life is splendid if you really want to look at it like that. find the good side of something and it will be okay, i know its hard but it is possible.

 

I have kinda also been obsessing about this postsecret with the Bruno Munari forks and i kinda want to know what it means but i dont because that ruins the whole thing. There is the intrepretation from munari that the first one is grief second is fear/denial/hiding and the third is anger. or it could be talking about friends/family or even about mental stability. Maybe even eating disorder or something like that. the options are countless and i think this is one of the best secrets because it means so many different things to everyone. everyone can turn it into what they want it is amazing. I love the secret and I love the person who made it.

 

hey i got a question, should i feel betrayed that my bestfriend and ex are dating? i dont know how to feel, part of me wants to just kirk out and be like i hate you fools but the other part of me is liek you cant interfere if they are happy. I am so torn do i want to keep myself stable and kirk or should i just let it be eat a little at me and hurt our friendships some but let them be happy. i dont really even know if i can trust him like this cause i found out he acts like he doesnt like her at all to me and then with her he is cuddling and hugging and acting lovey dovey. i think thats the worst part that he is bold faced lying to me. i dont think it would matter as much if he just came out and was like"I like michelle" i mean that isnt that hard and it would mean so much to me. I dont know what to even do with those two.

 

spring break sucks when you let other peoples problems wear you out. honestly i have helped like 10 people with relationship problems or just life in general and i dont really mind at all but it is finally taking a toll on me. plus no closure on my problems makes it kinda hectic. i know i shouldnt let their problems affect me or change me but we are only human and its hard to resist being affected at all. its strange being the one that is gone to with problems and helping people. i used to be the ass everyone was scared of but now im helping peoples. strange scene chang but its fine i will find myself somewhere and i wll keep my head held high.

 

Life is an intresting thing, it throws these tests at you to see what you are made of. but remember that it isnt how you start something but how you finish it and the choices you make. so make the right choices and be a good person.

 

Love you all for readin and thanks.