"Over a year without drugs and you made me turn back to them"
Ya right.
I don't care what 1 million pot smokers think. Marijuana is a drug!!!!!!
It makes you more susceptible to heart attacks, makes you loose coordination and have trouble with learning, can obstruct your airways etc etc. And He's been doing enough of it over the years for this shit to take place.
Ya, sure, you haven’t done cocaine and shit for over a year, but you shouldn't blame a bad relationship on YOU going out and buying illegal crap that’s going to put you even more into dept and depression. You started doing that shit in the first place because the only thing you ever want to do is look cool in front of your friends. Well guess what: YOU DON'T!!!!
A 19-year-old drug addict failing college and thousands of dollars in dept that hangs out with other stoners isn't something to impress people with. You are ruining your fucking life and many others around you. Within a couple years you’re probably going to drop out of college, and live in a crack house. Or dead. Unless SOMEBODY manages to throw an intervention. Pfft. As if you'll ever stop.
You had no reason to turn to drugs in the first place anyways. You're well put off in a nice home in a middle class family. Parents don't beat you; you have plenty of food and clean water, the privilege to go to school, etc etc. Underneath your "I don't give a fuck" and "lets always act pissed off" attitude you’re really just a crybaby with no real friends that does dumb shit to try and get attention. In fact, at family gatherings you try to impress your 17 and 14 year old cousins by telling them stories about doing cocaine and drinking compulsively. You think that’s cool? You think that’s GOOD!? YOU’RE GOING TO DIE A FUCKING YOUNG AGE!!!!!! Blame any shit you want. YOU'RE the one who decided to do that shit. Not a bad mark on a report card (you did that as well), not a bad relationship (you’re the one who kept crying back to her). You. Solely you. You're the one who went out and said "Humm…I would like one brick of cocaine please" then snorted it at a party in front of me. Not me. You want the bad relationships and bad marks and dept to stop depressing you? Change them. Don't act like you had such a terrible life that you need to cover up with pot. IF you DID have a terrible life, that’s your fucking fault, because you’ve had all the resources to have a great life. Everybody has hardships. You’re just being a pussy. And trust me, I don't say that about just anyone.
AND if you didn't want attention, you wouldn't have posted on the Internet that your back into drugs.
To those who know whom I'm talking about, I would be extremely grateful if you did not mention this blog to the person I am talking about. Of course posting personal shit over the Internet isn't a smart way to conceal thoughts about someone, but I can't speak like this in real life because I never get out the full story, I get interrupted, or I lose my train of thought. Of course I could write it down, but I chose here and I know the consequences of my actions. People could say I'M looking for attention. People could disagree with pot being a drug. People can be depressed over something similar that happened in their life. I'm ready for these comments. Really, all I'm looking to do is pour out my thoughts and look for conformation over my predictions of what may happen to this person, so I know that this really is as serious as I think it is.
-Kristal