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KitsunenoTora

Drinking: Nothing, but I'm thirsty. :/
Reading: Bokurano and the new Naruto chapter (ZOMG STUPID CLIFFY GODDAMIT)
Playing: Rune Factory 2
Working on: Taylor's Christmas present, RG's Hanekoma pic in Photoshop - I can't draw snow. DX
Listening to: 89X Morning show's podcast

KitsunenoTora is feeling: Tired, overheated

Yet another day I didn't get up when I told myself to. I set my alarm to wake me up at 11:00, because I wanted to get up early to study some more for my chemistry test, but I ended up getting up around 1:00. >.> I stayed up too late, I was just too awake last night to even think about getting into bed until nearly 4 am. Now today, for some strange reason, I was really tired at midnight. (Although it's almost 3 now, haha. XD) I don't get it - I didn't sleep much more than I usually do, maybe an hour more. I got 10 instead of 9. It just took place at different times. Well, actually, I think I got around 6 or 7 last night... I dunno, I don't remember. It's strange, sometimes I work better on less sleep than I do on a normal amount or more. You'd think it'd be the opposite, but I've had days where I was way more awake and alert while running on 4 hours of sleep than days when I get 8 or 9. Weird~

Anyway, I got up, took a shower, and studied some more. Although it was really hard to concentrate on it - I can't do anything if there's a tv on in the room I'm in, my eyes and attention are just drawn to it automatically. Even if it's a show I despise and would rather do my work. I'm just so easily distracted. ^^;; So I ended up watching more of the movie that was on (that I've seen 50 times but just can't remember the name of... hell, I can't even remember the name of one of the actors. I am lame. DX He's Indiana Jones. Goddam I'm awful. XDDD) than studying, but I had gone over everything the night before, so.... I did know a few things.

I went to class an hour early because Dr. Khan said he'd also be there early to help us study and answer questions. He ended up being 15 minutes late, which he blamed on a broken copier. In the end, he only did one problem in front of the class, the rest of the time was spent joking with one of the other students and taking individual questions. Which was annoying - I didn't have any specific questions, I just wanted him to do a few of the problems on the board with the class as practice so I could set it more solidly in my brain. Last minute cramming is not the way to go, and I wanted him to do some a few times so that it would at least stick longer in my brain. So I was basically left to my own devices anyway. I probably won't go early again. Although, it was good study time, there wasn't much to distract me except my own nervousness. Half my time before the test was spent nervously tapping my foot and staring off into space, trying to remember things - I was way too nervous to focus on a sheet of paper. DX

5:30 rolled around, and it was time for the test. I have never been so nervous for a test in my life. Luckily beforehand he mentioned that he went easy on us on Chapter 6 - there were two problems, and you could pick whichever one you wanted to do, and only one. I picked the easiest one, of course. XP Anyway, I skipped right to the math problems section, because that section was the one that I had all my cramming teetering on the edge of memory for. So I got that done and then did the multiple choice in the beginning. I think I did well, which I'm relieved about. I did so terrible on my last test, I don't even want to think about it. DX There were two multiple choice questions I wasn't too sure about, and one math problem one that I got confused about at the end, but I'm pretty confident I got at least a B. I finished really early too - at about 6:10 - so I spent a good 20 minutes checking over my math and making sure I didn't make any minor errors. Then I turned it in (almost knocking over one of the expensive glass tubes on the desk in the proccess, oops. Luckily he caught it) and walked around for a while. I was going to go to the library right away and get on a computer until 7, but then I realized that Andrea might be hanging around the corner in the cafe, so I headed there. This big fat Asian guy was walking by - apparently he saw me playing Kingdom Hearts with Andi yesterday. I guess he joined the club, but I'd never seen him before yesterday. He introduced himself and shaked my hand. I think his name was Kevin, but I'm not sure. I'm terrible with names. XD; His hand was REALLY WARM. Like, he was feverish or had just been running for a while. (But he wasn't sweaty, and with his physique I doubt the latter, sorry to say. >.>;) It was strange, but maybe it was just me, I was just outside. I felt my hand afterwards, and it was cold, so maybe.

I just saw the usual guys playing video games and that board game that I can't understand no matter how many times I've seen it played, so I turned around and left. That Kevin guy had acted like he wanted me to wait around and talk, but I wasn't too interested. He seemed nice and all, but it didn't seem very reasonable to me to stick around for only half an hour, he'd probably just get back as I was leaving. Plus, I don't know a lot of the guys in the club that well, anyway.

Went to the library and surfed the forum for a bit. It was really busy, but no one was really talking about anything I wanted to talk about, so I just commented on my test and surfed the net for a few minutes before I had to leave.

I walked down to A building and waited for my ride there. A few of my classmates were in the little lobby there talking about the test - one of them asked me how I thought I did. Although she didn't ask me anything after that, although it looked like she wanted to make conversation. Oh well. I waited around for about 3 minutes before I realized Pat's truck was outside, I had been looking for mom's van instead, so it didn't even register. He parked way at the other end of the circle anyway, which is kinda hard to see because of the blinds.

Got home and did really nothing of importance... just ate, worked in Photoshop, taked on the forum a teensy bit, played Rune Factory 2, etc. Oh, and I talked to Silent. Apparently that girl he had been forced to ask out by his friends (who said no, twice) made a bet with one of her friends - and if she loses she has to go out with him. I told him that if she loses that bet he should say no - she's just playing games with him, and he's just going to get hurt. I can tell that she's totally not worth it by what he's told me, anyway. Although he didn't exactly tell her in the most eloquent of ways... he outwardly said "I hope you win that bet" rather than explaining how he feels about the bet to her... I don't think it went over that well. He said later that she said "I'm going to drop a nuke on you," but he wasn't sure if she was joking. I don't think she was. He definitely soiled something in the way he said it - she's definitely mad. I had been really hoping that for his sake, things would end up well... but he handled it in the wrong way and screwed it up, it seems. D: Poor Silent, I feel bad for him. But what do you expect? Despite how mature he is (even I'm impressed, I wish my brother was as mature and smart as him) he's only 12, and has never dealt with something like that before. He didn't even want it to happen - he confided in one of his friends that he liked her, and word spread amongst his other friends, who then forced him to ask her out, starting the whole thing.

Of course, I have no right to talk, since I've never even gotten even close to confessing to someone and have no personal experience, but I've seen it a million times before, so I can at least work with it "on paper." He said it in a hateful way - which is a reasonable reaction, just not the right one - instead of just mentioning how he feels about it in a calm way, so it's bound to blow up in his face. I just didn't tell him - I didn't want to ruin any hope he had. And you never know, I might be wrong. Maybe she was joking, and wasn't offended. I wasn't talking to her, so I can't know.

...I'd offer to join in a group chat with him and her to help sort it out, but he got rather philosophical after she logged out and started quoting some lines from a website. One was something akin to: "When the pain becomes enough, people will allow anyone to be a doctor."  Which applies directly to that offer, and after mentioning it he told me that he wanted to work it out himself rather than rely on someone else to try and fix it. That he'd rather suffer nobly than lean on someone else he hardly even knows. Which is admirable. Plus, I know that road too well - from trying to help Dixie. She got to the point that she cried out for help on her forum, to a group of people she hardly knows, just has a relationship with over the internet... and none of us could help her, really. So I couldn't exactly offer to act as a medium and help them figure it out, could I? It's not my business anyway, no matter how much I want him to work it out in a way that doesn't hurt him too much. There's only so much I can do, so I suppose I can only just be there to hold conversation with him while he tries to sort it out. He told me that it helps him keep his composure, so I guess it's enough.

...This is getting surprisingly long considering it's only spanning one day for once. O.o It's really late anyway, I should head to bed. (WTF why do I keep on spelling "bed" as "bead?" DX)

Goodnight, digital abyss.