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KitsunenoTora

Drinking: Water
Eating: HUNGRY. D< NEED FOOD~
Playing: Rune Factory 2
Worrying about: What my doctor said about my sugar test

KitsunenoTora is feeling: Tired, upset, angry, worried

-Sigh- Today is Friday the 13th. Now, I'm not a superstitious person. Friday the 13th has no meaning to me other than it's Friday and the 13th day of the month, and that horror movie series. Although maybe I should be more superstitious of this day just because of what I learned from my doctor...

Then again, I could have found out any other day just as easily, it just so happened to be today. So there's really no logical reason to think that way, really. ^^; Just like how it was before.

This morning probably around 11:30 my mom came in my room with the phone. It was my gynecologist's office - they're the ones who prescribed the sugar test, so they got the results. I was sleeping still when she came in, so she woke me up. I didn't really catch the tone of her voice all that well since I was still half asleep, but from what I remember she had a worried-serious tone to her voice, so I got the impression that it was a lot. DX I don't want to become diabetic. :( I like sugar. And I don't want to give up pop; there isn't anything to drink at home except water and pop, and water gets really boring after a while. But then I would have to switch to diet pop, which tastes DISGUSTING. UGH. Do not want. But I dunno what I'm supposed to do. I'll have to talk to my doctor.

This sucks. It really does. And now I have no choice - I gotta lose some weight. It'll just increase and increase my chance of actually developing it, and if/when I do it'll just become impossible to get rid of, and I'll just gain more. Not good. But I'm comfortable with the way I am. I don't want to get any bigger, but I'm comfortable enough to not want to bother about it. It's a lot of work that I don't know if I have the motivation to carry out. So I'm at a crossroads. Keep my current lifestyle, eating what I like and doing what I want, and run the risk of developing diabetes, or work to lose weight and exercise and still have the risk, but lessen it.

It should be an easy choice, as I am self-conscious about my weight and it does sometimes give me a lot of grief, but I'm a lazy fuck. I don't want to do it. Uggggh. I know it's going to be difficult.

Hmph. My mom just told me that this is a chance to "fix myself, maybe even your last chance." Wow. You're so helpful when it comes to my self-esteem, Mom. /sarcasm I've never been one to have low self-esteem, it just comes naturally to me, despite everything that happens that should destroy it. That probably won't do it, but that was rude. Stupid bitch.

I just got a letter from the hospital right now, along with my check from work. I should open it and see what it says... Never mind. It was just a survey on how I was treated. I'm not that interested in filling it out. >.>

My check is 2 dollars more than I usually get. Yay. :D

Alright, I've run out of things to say. Later today I'll be going to my dad's house for the weekend, so this streak of updating every day will end. ^^; I need to call my grandma and aunt about my test results, and I can tell my dad when he gets here at 6.

It's not night-time, but I won't be updating tonight. So goodnight, digital abyss.