feelings of love traped inside

i want to be something more then complex-somthing as beautiful, as the simple as the stammering heart beat of those who try, who try to find and cannot seek, i dont want to hide but to be free in public is what i need to show them all that, yes, i can be. i can love and only love for him, and he is whom i need. not just want or some lust attachment to my mind but more then those feelings have grown over time. and i want to gather more and to know everything about him for it is he, his love that makes me grow.