School. is. not. what. i. wanted.

Why.

why cant i just live with my boyfriend comfortably somewhere, just me and him, without money or problems?
because without money there are problems
but if there was NO money i dont think there would be a problem.

life is hard.
i dont care if i should know that by now.

when i was in middle school i thought i was bipolar. sometimes i still think that because one second i think im going completely insane, the next im happy as a clam, the next i wanna cry my eyes out.

this doesnt happen often, but once.......a month? maybe.

the insanity thoughts linger. the happiness is basically constant, even when i think im crazy...

nevermind.
i cry randomly for a reason.
I'm a girl. fuck.