crazy questions

I though about all the things I have ever wanted and I have yet to come up with something.  I mean something so heartfelt and gripping that it literally tears your heart open and makes you scream because you can't take the pressure.

We were asked to think about this and I had the hardest time...now I can so remember.  I remember the time I was in love with someone I couldn't have.  I don't think I wanted then as much as I led myself to believe.   It's  notb because I was totally in love with the person.  I mean come on, how can you love some one that you don't even know.  I wanted the person because I wanted to get to know them.  Something entrigued me...obviously!  I wanted what I want when I want it.

Yeah I know selffish!  Now I really still want them but not just cause.  I really do want to get to know the person.  I can't stop thinking about what makes the person tick. 

I am thinking, I am not totally sure what makes me tick!!