So yeah ....

Yesterday was like hell .... just overall not a good day.

I've reached a point where I hate bitching about shit ..... there are so many more folks out there that truly and legitimately have the right to bitch .....

The end result of the day was for the most part good ..... but I don't want to relive this mess anytime soon.

Before I had a chance to finish my second cup of coffee Dave was tearing up the bedroom ..... literally ..... and then pretty much demanding my help ..... which I would of given anyway ..... but with his rudeness it took everything I had to not lose it completely.  So without eating breakfast or exercising I started helping him out.  Mom comes home from Wednesday morning bingo and lets us know that she had tripped over Joe the night before and fell ..... bruising her hand and bending the frame of her glasses.  She already had a scheduled doctors appointment that afternoon and she needed to go see if her frames could be fixed.  So ..... a quick jump in the shower and off to Yreka with mom.

She is fine and they got her glasses fixed so all is well with mom.  But four hours later ..... still without eating ..... I walk in the door to the entire house being just upside down .... shit everywhere.  Mom hasn't eaten since breakfast either and it is obvious that cooking will not be taking place anytime soon in the chaos.

I'm not in the door two seconds before Dave is back in my face telling me "You can help you know" ..... wtf?  So now it is past four thirty and I'm still starving and now I'm doing as I'm told ..... helping.

At 7:30 I hear ..... has your mom eaten ... ?  It's 7:30 at night?  I'm like how in the fuck would I know ..... I've been here with you ..... and now I'm a shit for not making sure mom had dinner ...... again ..... wtf?

I'm still barely speaking to Dave this morning ..... and he to me.  Finally at 9:00 pm I ate some nuts crawled in to my extremely dirty bed (from shit being piled on it all day and the vacuuming of the ceiling) and went to sleep.  Trying to shake off my anger from the day. 

I seriously need to scream, punch a wall ...... something ..... and I now have a wood floor in my room ..... that was not covered when painted god knows how long ago ..... and some of the floor was replace with plywood somewhere down the line .... it's truly lovely ..... whatever ..... Dave's happy ..... I think.  God only knows.  Me, I'm shaking from anxiety and left over anger / annoyance. 

I'm fairly sure I'm losing my mind .....

Peace.  J.


 
   

 


 
 
tattooedjen on
Re: HELP ME MR. WIZARD ........
what about taking a jog or something?  would that help?  or is there a tiny little gym in etna or yreka that you could go to and just pay the one-day fee and work your frustrations out?  that sounds awful! 

for some reason, it reminded me of a conversation i had with justin monday night.  cuz monday, he washed up like... 7 plates and some silverwear.  we have a whole pile of dishes from the weekend... but that's what he did.  that was cool.  we needed that for dinner with everyone monday night.

monday night comes and we have garret and martha and G & L over for corned beef and cabbage.  plates and silverwear are dirtied.  we also had pie for dessert, which means another round of silverwear.

monday night, i offer to make us dinner with the leftover stuff (the hash and eggs i made).  so i'm dicing up corned beef, got the skillet getting hot to cook in, then after that i've gotta cook the eggs too.  so i ask him if he'd mind doing a quick load of plates and silverwear whilst i cook. (we didn't have any forks and only one plate.)

"um, yeah, i do mind.  i did a load yesterday."  "um..... okay, but i'm cooking?"  "well i really don't feel like doing dishes," he says to me.

i stand there, flabbergasted.  this is very unlike justin, and there were a lot of choice things i wanted to say cuz i was pissed, but i'm not much of a fighter.  so i was thinking, "well fuck him! he can make his own fucking eggs and i'll use the ONE plate left and wash my own shit!"  so i start throwing the silverwear and plates into the dishpan all angry-like and while my potatoes are frying, i'm washing plates and i'm MAD!

he comes over and is like, "why are you doing dishes!?"  and i go, "well, if we want to eat, then someone's gotta do them and i thought you could since i'm cooking, but i guess not!"  "why don't you just use what i washed yesterday!" he argues, his voice raising.  so i raise mine too, "cuz they all got dirty with dinner last night!" and i throw another plate into the sink to emphasize my point.

he gets all shamed looking, looks in the cupboard and the silverware drawer and goes, "oh.  well i didn't know that!  here, i'll wash."  "no, that's fine, i got it." (i'm almost done with the plates.) and he goes to touch my potatoes, which need to NOT be touched so they crisp up and i'm like, "don't you touch my potatoes!"  he has a habit of "toying" with food when it should just be left alone to cook, heheh.

he goes, "well i gotta do something or i'm going to feel like a butt now."  heheheh!  aww, it was so puppy-doggish and pathetic that i let him finish the dishes while i finished dinner.

sorry, that wasn't really related to your shitty day... but it made me think of it.
iliketiedye on
Re: HELP ME MR. WIZARD ........
LOL ....

See ..... I should of helped out with dishes Sat. night before we watched the movie ..... now I feel like poop for having left the mess .....

Your hash looked yummy ..... !

Peace.  J.
tattooedjen on
Re: HELP ME MR. WIZARD ........
oh you shut your mouth!  (fingers?!)

you are company, you don't do dishes!  plus, we're lazy... we had all sunday afternoon to do them and we didn't.  we just got baked.
iliketiedye on
Re: HELP ME MR. WIZARD ........
What?  Company can't do dishes??? lmao ......

And you two are far from lazy ..... I have so much to do today and I'm once again just shining it on .... I'm overwhelmed with where to put shit ..... no room .... too much shit ..... gurrrr ...... where to start in this mess ..... **** sigh ****

Peace.  J.
tattooedjen on
Re: HELP ME MR. WIZARD ........
that's how we always feel.  sometimes i just want to go through everything and clear our entire place of... well, of everything!  nothing on the counters, nothing in the closets, nothing on shelves or tables.  complete minimalization!

yeah... i wish.
lauralew on
Re: HELP ME MR. WIZARD ........
***Snaps fingers*** Now your bad day turns into one week closer to me being up in Arcata!!!! I'll let you know when I know my plans exactly and then I can come clown around and make your day better!

 

Namaste.

L.

iliketiedye on
Re: HELP ME MR. WIZARD ........
Well hurry up!  LOL .....

You always make my day brighter ...... !  But having you in Arcata sooner that expected?  For another visit ..... ?  Or for good ?????  Or am I confused as always ..... lmao .... ?

Your grandfather is call from outdoors .... lol .... on my way .....

Peace.  A. G.

 
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