Black Magic Rituals & Perversions

As it has been near the front of my thought process of late, dating and relationships remains the topic. As mentioned yesterday, I have a theory that applies to me and my current situation in this realm. What I am finding more and more is that this theory applies with a much wider swath than I care to acknowledge. It is a theory as to what I am or what I have to offer that is making it difficult for me to find a compatible mate. I refer to this theory as "Too Much Of One/Not Enough Of The Other".

The concept is simple and is explained clearly in the title. To breakdown even further, I will first start with explaining myself. I am technically an adult. However, I love music, particularly metal, punk and rock. I play video games and stay well informed in gaming news, release dates and more. I am a movie nerd of epic proportions, checking various fansites and IMDB.com all the time.

So then here is my "One or Other" theory. It breaks down as my being either too much or not enough for any various woman I encounter. If I were to encounter a woman who has her life together, is relatively successful and is seeking a man to raise a family with, chances are I'm not their guy. To said together woman, I likely come off as the crazy, Satan-worshipping, sarcastic and immature metal guy. If I were to encounter a woman who is more eclectic, into more subversive interests and music/movies/art, chances are I'm not her guy either. To artsy goth/punk/metal girl, I likely come off as slightly too clean-cut who isn't going to want to hang upside down from the ceiling like a bat while being whipped or burned. While I realize that I'm making somewhat wild generalizations, the theory proves to be eerily accurate in my real world encounters.

As my theory pertains to my latest female interest gone south, I didn't pass the mustard once again. The exact reasons why this is escapes me. I am aware of the flaws that I have that are obvious, so the rest of what causes a woman to pass on me beyond those are that which I am not in tune with. While I fully understand that I've done my fair share of passing on women, this latest one stings for me a lot because I felt like I was to believe that the interest might be mutual. More than anything, I hate allowing someone else's behavior to affect me this much.

Playlist for 2-25-09
Burst - Lazarus Bird
Electric Wizard - Witchcult Today
Cynic - Traced In Air
Neurosis - Given To The Rising