been a while

I can't remember how long it's been since I had a blog that actually followed my thoughts and went into some semblance of detail.
I also can't remember how long it's been since I promised I'd list what I wanted in a girl.
the idea still seems pretty retarded, but know what?  I don't care.  It's about time I figured it out, so here goes.

Emily said I'm just picky enough.  I want the best girl, but I'm not going to pass up several good options in the pursuit.  I suppose she's right, but I also heard that I can be disinterested and argumentative.  Also that I can fool around without blinking an eye, but when it came to an actual girlfriend I close everyone out.  I'm not sure about the last one.  The last two times I've just wanted to be the only someone for her and we went on dates and we sure fooled around but she wasn't in the relationship boat.  I can't seem to figure it out, but here's a decent description of what I'd want.  Tell your friends :)

• I guess she's blond.  I've kinda always had a thing for blonds.  I do enjoi a brunette here and there, but we'll go blond for now.
• She's gotta be the cutest thing I've ever seen, but at the same time turn me on like no one else.
• I want her to piss me off and make me wonder why I'm with her, and then she does something to completely redeem herself and I say "oh yeah, that's why."
• She's gotta drive me to do better, be better, and go somewhere.  Not that I need help with that, but it'd be nice to have a cheering section for when I get frustrated.
• She's smart, witty, clever, and leaves me speechless.  I want her to be able to kiss and make conversation.  Normally I get one or the other, but dammit I want both.  I can get one or the other most of the time, and I think I explained to Emily that I had contacts for both, but I want it all in one.
• I need her to make me laugh.  Someone to laugh at me.  I mean really laugh.  Not just "oh my god he's gonna kill me if I look at him wrong" or "god that's pathetic, but here's a bone" kind of laugh.  I want her to light up my day and dammit I'll do my best to light hers. I wanna make stupid jokes and she doesn't care about it.
• I guess she's gotta kinda be that classic romantic girl.  I'm kinda that guy, so it'd be nice to have someone who really appreciates the little things I bust my ass to do that normally go unnoticed.
• I wanna just sit there and not say a word and it won't matter.  I want our thoughts together on a park bench under the stars to be the greatest things we never say to each other.
• I want her to do some of the work to keep us going.  I want her to call me first every now and then. I want her to call me at 2 AM and tell me she can't sleep cuz she's thinkin about me too much.  This goes along with what I said about me doing little things to bust my ass that go unnoticed.
• I wanna feel like she's lonely if I'm not there.  I want her to miss me when she's with her best friends.
• I want her to be honest, faithful, and completely open with me.  I don't know if I have the patience to go through any more of that again.  Any of the times it's happened, most specifically the last two.
• I don't want her to have the idea that it's either her or my skateboard.  I'll pick the board every time if she gets that way.  She needs to know that I have three great loves and they're equal.
• I want her to tell her friends that they're wrong about their boyfriends being the greatest guy in the world.
• I want her to be able to shut out other people's opinions and crumble under mine.  I seem to always do that for them, and I'd love some of it in return.

I'll think of more later, and I'll put it in, but...I'm just not gonna finish it right now.