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    It's been an interesting last couple of days, and I must say:  I'm rather looking forward to the next few as well.   For once, I feel as if no matter what's going on, it's not that bad.  I've been searching for the deeper meaning of things, and really the basis of human wants and the interworkings of the mind, and I think I've got it narrowed down from last week sometime (as much of a stride as that sounds).  I'd like to attribute most of it to Communications, mainly because that class is so worthless and stupid and completely wrong in what she tells us about being humans and what we naturally think and what apparently has to be our thoughts...I get so upset in that class...it's so wrong.  She tells us that we're a certain way and that's just the way it is and there's no changing it, but that's a false statement.  As humans, we have the capacity to think and reason, and the whole free will thing factors in to prove that we can do whatever we want, but with the free will comes laziness and a lack of will to think outside our little realm of comfortable, socially-acceptable thoughts (which doesn't make any sense to me...they're thoughts in your head, they don't have to be socially-acceptable). 

I've also noticed that another user (imnotpoetic) has made a resolution to get things accomplished.  I'd like to wish her the best of luck, and I hope she accomplishes her goals, whatever they may be.  I like to watch people apply themselves for the betterment of themselves.  It makes me very pleased to see people looking to themselves to solve problems instead of looking to others.  It really captivates everyhting I've said about people being able to do things they really want to and only needing the right thing to spark the imagination and inspiration.  Now that I've said all that, I don't want you to let me down.  Don't dash my happiness.  Accomplish your goals and make me proud, and progress like you know you're capable of.   I have faith in you.


Anyway, back to my blog, I was sitting there today and I came up with most of the stuff on this particular list, the rest is from other classes.

1. I never really hada  reason to hate that kid, and I still don't, but I do feel slightly justified now
2. Who do I know with that name?!
3. It is hidden rather well in most circumstances.
4. I alwasy did like that kid :)
5. Hoping something happens and thinking it will are entirely different.  Hoping requires absolutely nothing but fantasy, whereas thinking something will happen is supposed to have taken thought and reasoning and at least a slight amount of logic.
6. "It's affected me for years." and yet you can't remember the story? 
   
7. If the individuals of a group cannot function as individuals, they shoulnd't funcction as a group.
8. Cuz there's rules applied to those that there aren't elsewhere.
9. Also, if you learned or believed anything they tell you in Communications, you're retarded.
10. Why is that typical?  You're an idiot.
11. She's not that hot...what's the big deal?  If anything, she's kind of creepy.
12. Feels like I'd just be going through the motions...which is something I definitely don't want to be doing.  I'd be doing basically what was happening before:  missing it when it's gone, never appreciating it when it's there.  Taking advantage of the one really good thing that had happened in a long time, and never realizing it until too late.  I'm glad I caught myself.
13. It's really really really really really really really complicated.
14. Ha!  A Utopia with religion?   Whatever.
15. Yes and no.  Why?
16. *sarcasm*  yeah, thanks Mr. Thomas.
17. Holy freakin piss.
18. Can we get some stability please?
19. People can be incredibly stupid.
20. Maslow's wrong.  Very wrong.  His pyramid of basic human needs is total bullshit.
    
21. That changed your life?  Depressing....
22. Again, take a freakin joke.  Jesus Christ.
23. The question wasn't serious, why are you?
24. Still #1, thank you.
25. Interesting mood change.  Quick too.   *sniff*
26. Harley Davidsons are worthless.  So are people who want one.
27. Recognition through falsities and dreams is the lowest form of dishonesty.
28. The things I treasure most in life cannot be taken away.
29. Opinion: to each, his own.  But some opinions are still wrong.
30. Looking at it, God (in one form or another) is the leading cause of death.
31. It creates more harm than harmony.
32. The idea is to keep the momentum, or lose as little as possible.
33. I hate people who look up every answer in the book on a review.  It's a review, you should know it.
34. Never leave a paper trail.   Ever.
    
35. God, especially when she does it like that!  wtf?!
36. CONSISTANCY.   Learn it, apply it.
37. Hmm...well, that wouldn't be logical, then, would it?  Idiot.
38. Not neccessarily.
39. Then you probably shouldn't have said anything.  Moron.
40. No, you should probably be the same to everyone all the time, unless circumstances in the past have altered the relationship, but that's not what you were talking about so piss off.
41. Maybe it's jsut the words and examples she uses that make it stupid.  Then again, maybe she's just full of shit.

Tonight's the night the world begins again.  I was talking with a friend (or so-called, self-proclaimed friend) the other night and I laid it out:  we never really talk, said friend only talks to me when they want something, we've never been more than friends but I suppose we'll never be less, and I don't like it.  That person talks to me a bit more, and I think they're trying to build a small friendship, but it's a weak start.  I don't care, I have enough friends, and they don't stab me in the leg like that one has.
Also, I'm throwing myself out on a limb tomorrow.  Sort of.  It's a plan I have...I think it's a good one.  It might work like I envisioned, but then again, let's be realistic: it probably won't.  And I'm okay with that, laregly due to the idea that I just need to get it done and over with so I don't have to keep it inside like this.  I've told 2 people about it:  Emily and Austin, probably the only 2 people that I'd feel okay with telling just about anything.  If you two read this, I'd like to say thanks for everything you've done over the years.  Really.  I don't know exactly who I'd be right now had I not had the companionship and advice you two have given me.  This one's mine though; I thought it up, I'm putting it into action, and I'll reap what I sow from it.  In a roundabout way, I feel like maybe I can get some good out of it...either I get some very good, or I get some very awkward.  We hope for the former, and I'll live with the latter if it so happens to be that way.