I am a recoverying meth addict.  And let me tell you recovery is not easy!!  Meth and it's nightmare are real!  It's sad but very true.  I remember tripping so hard that I would hide behind pillars in the yard with a BB gun ready to shot my sons father when he came around the corner.  Mind you it would be about two or three in the morning.  I would always think I had a flat tire or that some one was following me especially if at any time soon I was about to go buy stuff to make meth with. Or if I was about to go be the watch out for my boyfriend while he made meth.

 

It was a nightmare.  I still get paranoid to this day just not about me getting locked up "Praise God"!  There is freedom in recovery!! So much freedom.  I don't have to freak out when I see a cop or a unmarked car.  I don't have to fear being caught with pills (for making dope) on me.  Or that my boyfriend is gonna bet the crap out of me because of some stupid thought that got implanted into his head from staying up two or three nights in a row and smoking dope! 

 

Has anyone been there?  Does anyone appricate there sober time or being sober??

 
   

 


 
 
007 on
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Welcome back to the world of the living  keep up the good work
it must be a difficult journey you are on but you aer strong enough to prevail  
just take things one day at a time that is all that anyone can do.
godsdetox on
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Thank you for the words of incouragement!! 
christianisrael on
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Congratulation, godsdetox.  How long you been clean?
godsdetox on
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I have been clean two years this Christmas!!   Smiley  Its hard work staying clean but it is well Worth it!!  I enjoy my life now and my family it's awesome!!   Thank U!!
christianisrael on
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I'm rejoicing with you!  When you say, "It's hard work staying clean," what do you mean?  What do you do to stay clean?
godsdetox on
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I have to stay in the word and pray.  And I have to reach out to help others.  I find that when I help others that its easier for me to stay clean. I started having temptations come back about 6 months ago.  It's just a time of testing I believe.  It seems as though once your in addict that your always vulnurable to going back into drug use.  And if I don't always stand ready (and strong enough) to fight off any cravings than its bye bye to me.  My main walk is really with the Lord ... ... Cause if I don't countinue to walk with him I will no doubt about it be back useing.  And there are times when a Christians walk isn't easy as you well know. 
christianisrael on
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I honor your struggle, dear sister.  Those are great answers, written by someone who truly knows what it takes to stay strong.  I'll use them if and when I need to encourage others in similar struggles.  And I will pray for you, sis.
godsdetox on
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Thank you very much not only for the prayer but for using my struggle/words to encourage others!!
christianisrael on
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My privilege, sis.  We'll stay strong!
olokun on
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your courage is to be commended. congrats!
rockstrr on
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Yes i have been there i did drugs for about 23 years of my life,I have dealt it,made it and even done it.I'm not proud of the people's life's i've destroyed by selling or even giving them the first taste of the drugs.I have made amends to a lot of people in my recovery and it is not fuckin easy at all I am going on three years of being clean and sober and every now and then I do get the urge or dream about it but nothing will ever get me to do it ever again I lost too much in my life over that shit...I still get nervous when i see the police because i got so used to running from them it just a habit i may never let go....stay strong it's mind over matter

 
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