me again, im bored and i just read over my entries. man i was freaking EMO last year
sorry about that, im sure no one wanted to read those like hour long rants.
im alot happier now.
why you ask?
(okay you probably didn't ask seeing as im a loser and no one reads this but oh well)
i don't really know
but as one of my friends would say
'no matter what it is, it has SOMETHING to do with a guy'
i guess....
i met a nice one like...i unno a few weeks ago during a project i was doing.
just that kinda connection feeling, you know (or not seeing as theres still no one reading this)
but yeah im seeing him once more this week and that'll be it so i've gotta get over it
lest i turn into a lovesick pile of goo like with the whole thing with that guy in one of my entries.
you know the guy.
the 'so have you' guy.
yeah.
see you did remember.
(just humor me;P)
but yeah my friend (who i met him through) is like okay you have three options:
1) tell him you like him
2) i'll tell him you like him
or
3) get over him and shut the hell up
so seeing as i know options 1 & 2 will ONLY end in me being rejected
(this isn't some self pity thing im serious, he's not the 'boyfriend/girlfriend' type he's more the 'have-a-ton-of-girls-to-be-with-at-the-same-time' type)
so yeah i need to get over him...
or just start falling for better guys...
or possibly growing a backbone.
lying in my field of fireflowers peace out 
by the way if anyone does read this, post a reply or something...
i feel so alone:P
friends
