Hi, I am back. I am currently watching One Tree Hill. I LOVE this show hehe. So anyways, I am begining to realize something about myself. I need the little things in relationships. Like with my boyfriend, we never talk on the phone, usually it's just text messages and let me tell you, it is not the same. Also, I am the kiss-me-passionately, tell-me-you-love-me-at-random kind of girl and I am just not getting what I need out of this relationship... I really care for him and I think he feels the same way but he rarely opens up to me. I believe that I know him much better than he thinks I do. I just wish he could see that. We have really good chemistry but it just seems like too many things go un-said and I would do almost anything to change that if I knew how. I feel like I am always waiting on cues from him before I say or do anything and he does not see the real me. I am afraid that if I show him "me" then he will reject me or something and I do not think I can take that again... Then there are these times when he surprises me by putting some effort into the realtionship that I want so much. Like last week he left a note on my car while I was at school which I thought was so sweet but it got blown off before I could read it and I felt so bad because it seems like every time he tries something messes it up. I just really wish that we could get this relationship where I want it to be. Aright well I think I have spilled enough for tonight. I will be on later. Leave me some thoughts or advice.
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