Finally, well(er) and soooo far behind on my list of things to do which has suddenly grown. I have no poetical rambles, I need to make the space for wandering thusly in my mind. I DID see the first ultrasound of the baby that allegedly grows inside me, and heard the heartbeat. It made it more real. That, and the onslaught of intense, stoner-like cravings for sweet creamy food (think, stoner on steroids... intense).

The world progresses and I must hop on and catch up because now things are occurring that will kick my ass if I do not! The father and I are having many fun arguments - the worst one is church or not to church. Neither of us are church goers, and neither of us are "Christian" in the strict sense (ideologically, but not theologically). I lean towards Judaism, but the closest temple is prohibitively far away so I never took the conversion steps, and we both dig the philosophy of Buddhism. He wants to have the child attend church and let them find their own way. I don't mind the "finding your own way" with good information part... But churching can actually be harmful, if sent to the wrong one. There are repeated messages and misinterpretations and so many things that can be fed into an impressionable childs mind... Plus the fact that it seems hypocritical since mommy and daddy do not currently attend... The debate is ongoing, and has many elements... Personally, I think the child should be 5-7 before attending church, when they can actually pay some attention and get something out of it. I DON'T want to baptize them into a religion unless they choose it. He sees no problem with it, but to me, it's an oath and the child needs to know that promises matter.... OY

We are agreed that we will have to adopt the child out if he/she shows signs of Jock-ism though!

Merry Wednesday!