I'm sorry you feel that way. I hope the best for you and for your college. Best of luck. KM.

What the HELL is wrong with you? After everything she's done for you why would you even think something like this? What makes you think you have the right? Hm? She's never hurt you or backstabbed you. Kari would never do that to someone she considers a friend. She considered you a friend, someone she could confide in and you just slapped her in the face with that trust. Manipulate, you said. Manipulate my ass.

 

You burned all of your own bridges a long time ago Kari, it’s your own damn fault, so either learn to swim in your crap, or drown in it.

 

Well here you go sweets. Some of your own fucking advice. Watch what you say because any single word can burn a bridge. You, my dear, just burnt a lifetimes worth.

Noelle, this had nothing to do with you, and regardless of what you believe or feel, I am not mad at you. I am not mad at Kari anymore either. These are all things I have wanted and needed to say since April, and I am not sorry to have finally said them. They are how I feel. And if other people cannot handle that, fine. I am only responsible for myself. But she did hurt me and she did backstabb me, hard. I never broke her trust and I never purposely damanged her before this. Trust me, if I could've broken it off between her and I without doing this (which, by the way, I did try to do for 3 months) I would've, but I was left with no option. I'm sorry if what I said upset you, but I am not going to apologize for finally proving that I have a backbone and I am not taking it back. I'd hate for this mess to cause the loss of two friendships rather than one, considering that this really didn't involve you at all, but if that's what you want, than so be it, I can accept that. The same goes for Chris: it had nothing to do with you. But I respect both of your opinions. I'm sorry things had to be this way, but what's done is done.

Let me offer this. There is difference in developing a backbone and developing the maturity to face me in person (if possible) or at least through voice. All you have done here is hide behind a computer. You lied to me when I tried to apologise more than 3 months ago. If everything was not ok you should have said so there...no continued to hang out with me....offer to go to the movies.....accept invitations to go out with me and chris....not run up and start talking to me and seem perfectly fine. I friend...a person....and someone with a backbone would either try to salvage a "friendship you value" or let it go....not burn it to pieces. Also something else this is not a message to me....that would be an email....this is a God Damn Pitty party. You are looking for people to support your backbone and cry with you. I know because I was there....How many times did you call me in the middle of the night scared....how many times have I tried, and I emphasize try, to keep you from destructing yourself. And yes this has everything to do with Chris....We are one in the same and hurting me hurts him. And Noelle is my best friend and practically my sister. I had nothing to do with their responses to you they were of their own will. Brandy I really am sorry your feel this way. I'm sorry that you did this so that you would not have to face "the crap you will have to swim in" No darling you waited for the last possible time to do it so you would not have to deal with as much backlash, that is not a backbone and this a cheep shot. I guess if a friendship can so easily be dispersed like this by you and that you were not able to talk about this than I guess this is for the best because I don't want such a volital friend that hides this from me and then explodes. I never hid anything from you. I was up front and told you everything that I was doing and everything that I was planning to do.  All those people you listed yeah I had a play in them BUT the finger must be pointed both ways honey, they were in up to ther neck in their own shit just as much as I was. Pull the damn log out of your eye before picking the speck out of anyone elses. And to set one more thing straight I did NOTHING to your brother that he did not do to himself. AND he was the one who lied his ass off and used me, but if you were a friend and acctually cared you would know that. But hey you are turning out to be just like him. Best of luck with that. I won't contact you again as you requested but since you put this up for everyone I have to right to put this down. Good luck with everythign and I will hope things don't turn out as disastrously.

I have been in this situation, well similar. Be careful you dont get sucked back in its SO easy.

*hugs*

Youre fucking amazing for realizing it though, its a hard thing to do.

 

Yeah, it really was hard. But I feel better now, like a weight has been lifted from my shoulders, like I am no longer walking on eggshells. In some ways, it sucks, because I really did value her friendship, but I just could not continue like we had anymore. I had to have enough respect for myself to finally end it, and apparently it cost me more than I wanted it to, but sometimes things happen that can't be help. Thanks. *hugs*

Wow... I find this revolting in everyway. It's horribly immature and sad that one can betray someone's trust and friendship so easliy. I'm truely disappointed in you here, to blatently go to hurt someone, especially someone who you were so close to. I really do hope the best for you BJ, you have a lot of growing up to do, and I hope help comes your way one day. But to hurt one so close to me whom I love so, that's unexcusable. I feel sorry for you that you can be this type of person, and follow so easily... Not like you will care, but I guess you know this is a bridge you have now burnt to bits. I wish you the best BJ, but don't contact me again please. I'm sorry you feel this way, I'll say a prayer for you. Best of luck to you... CR