ok here it goes... im lost in a a heavey fog and once that fog clears there will be my life. this scares me. i dont know what to do, i dont knwo how to do it. im sufficated by the media to persue false hopes of riches i will not earn. i can spend all my life trying to get to the top, but is that where i want to be? .... the top what is that even? ... does the top vary from person to person and if it does is ther even a top . i have many thoughts running through my head and dont know how to put them down. this is chaos writeing my new syle. jamble of words in no for or proper structure, come as it goes. and leave everything down. this is the most naural way to write...let it flow. so as ideas have a foot race in my head i will be the sportscaster giving you play by plays on the thoughts, when i finish this we will find out who wins. so i am a people watcher this is my hobby. i go about my day studying the movements and habits of man. i do this for no reson, i dont get paid in the dollar sense, but i get paid in joy. PEOPLE the most fasinating animal.
