It's one of those strange blessings, getting older. While I now have to experience the mutitude of little physical inconveniences that seems to start happening after 40, the arthritis in the knee, the reading glasses, better bra's, aches and pains I didn't used to have to really cold days, "woman surgery", I still wouldn't give up the past 20 or so years or trade off any of them. The biggest advantage of being almost half a century old is the amazing wisdom, confidence, assuredness, sense of humour, and fearlessness that goes along with it.

I'd never have been able to take the risks I do today, with a new sense of daring and fun, if I was a young 25. Back then I cared about what "other's might think if...." Not anymore. I am blessed with a fun loving streak, just crazy enough to ask for what I want, and do what I want, and go places I want, and talk to people I want, without having to care if anyone is going to judge me or not. Of course my children in their young adult lives say .. "Mom you aren't really going to do that are you ?" They know full well the answer is YES, if I want to. What's more is I tend to be greeted sweetly and rarely turned down for better seats at concerts, early access to shows/concerts, better rooms, upgrades, meeting performers, having purchases brought to my car, discounts in stores, complaints handled quickly and with courtesy... the list goes on.

I also decided to do things I always wanted to. I always wanted to Sing - so I took singing lessons, play an instrument - took guitar lessons, and I hike, meditate, travel, and now have pets. I'm not sure I want to jump out of a plane, but I thing riding a speed boat will happen. I'm going to try belly dancing and Flemenco lessons - just for the hell of it.

I don't have any grandchildren yet, but I do look forward to having a lot of fun taking them on some adventures I know I missed out on when my kids were young. I was too busy being a mom, and a nurse, and being "respectable" within some ideal vision I had. I didn't dare enough. I plan to keep on being a wild and crrazy woman until I can't do it anymore and even then watch out for me sneaking out of the "home" for a few beers with the locals whenever I can get out!!

Yes 50 is coming and I think I'll throw myself a party. If I start planning now I should be able to make it one of the best parties ever, and with all those I love, or hope to share the second part of my life with, in attendence. I'll have to do some thinking on making it an event few will forget, I am sure I can come up with some entertainment to shock and please almost everyone!!

Namsaste'

Heather