I keep trying to find the energy to blog. Blogging used to be a way for me to vent my anger and frustration to get it out in the open. Now I barely do it. I mean it can't be because I am completely happy. Life has never been very happy for me. Even though I am recently married and bought a place to live in the past year. Things have changed a lot for me. I used to never leave the house, however, I still hardly leave. There are new things I learn everyday to deal with being a non-medicated bi-polar disorder having person in a medicated world. It is still difficult to me to acceot the fact that medication just might help my situation. There was a period in my life that I was on a few different anti-depressants, but that was before I found out I was bipolar. So those medications did nothing for me. I am just torn on what to do, do I keep up my struggle day to day to be happy? Or do I medicated myself and see if that works. I am afraid of medication, one because of the sexual side effects a lot of them have. Plus I don't want to waste a year of my life trying to find out the right mix for me. If anybody has any insight on what I should do, I would appreciate it. Although I fear I blog so little that not many wil read this. :)
 
   

 


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911northwoods on
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I think no medication is the way to go. Who wants side effects?

 

If you know yourself well enough then you can tell when you are starting to slip. You could always go back on the meds if you felt the need.

 

I'm not bi-polar so maybe you shouldn't take my advice. I have suffered from depression in the past though. But I've been med free for over 2 years.

 

Sorry, I didn't mean to reply to this with this blog ID.

 

 

doriangray on
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That's cool. I thank you for taking the time to write.
itsjustheather on
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I know that if I didn't take meds, I'd really be fucked. I've tried to do it on my own-that didn't work out for me. I'm sure you can find a happy medium. The sexual side effects suck but so does feeling the way you feel. You have to decide which is more important to you. What does your wife think?
doriangray on
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She thinks I should do what it takes to be happy, but of course she needs therapy as well. She is very high strung and snaps out very easily. Sometimes I think she is bipolar as well, but everytime I tell her she should go to therapy she tells me I should go. To which I argue, I know what my problem is. You don't.
itsjustheather on
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Maybe you could go together?

 

Just a thought....

doriangray on
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I thought about it, but I think that would be weird.
holythejazz on
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rageandlove on
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Not that my opinion probably matters much, seeing how we don't know each other.....however I'll give it anyway.

Being bi-polar isn't something that you can just live with. If you have actually been diagnosed as bi-polar by a medical professional it means that you have a chemical imbalance in your brain. The ONLY was to correct this imbalance is by taking medication. This doesn't mean that you have done anything wrong, it's not your fault, and lost and lots of people fall under this category, but to truly function at your optimal level and to be happy and live a 'normal' life (whatever that means anyways ) medication is defienetly the only way to go.
doriangray on
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Your opinion still matters regardless if we know each other or not. I believe a lot in what you are saying, but I really am scared of medication. And I have surrounded myself with people who try to understand that the way i act sometimes isn't my fault. I just got married and sometimes she gets angry when I withdraw from crowds or hide out in my room. But I tell her you have to just love me this way or I can go on medication. I have heard a lot of horror stories about medication, that they make you like a zombie, or you don't feel anything. So I am petrified of doing something about it. Eventually I will, but it is going to take a while before I do it. Thank you yufor taking the time to write me.
skittles on
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I know that epilepsy is very different than bipolar disorder, but I know what you mean about finding the right mix of medications.  It took me almost two years and it's worth it.  There's so many different kinds of meds that I'm sure there's some out there with side effects that won't bother you at all.

 

You can always stop taking medication, but how will you know if you never try.

doriangray on
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True...just afraid I guess. Taking that step is a big one.


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