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divine

Gar!

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The anger has found it's place and settled down (oh, but it's still very much there), and now the sorrow is setting in.
How do I keep on in this? How do I trust again?
I hate this whole situation.

It's strange, because when it was just overwhelming anger & resentment, I felt this inspiration and drive to overcome and say "fuck you" and go on to do something better, find something more. But now that's been kind of suffocated by lamentation for what once was, or seemed to be...
I want the anger to come back, so I can move on.
Maybe I need to feel this for a while though.
Such a mix of emotions... grr.

Again still, maybe I'll talk about specifics later...
-Liv-

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eyesthebye on

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An author Elizabeth Kubler Ross once wrote about the five stages of grief. Sometimes they doint come in the same order but usually. Sometimes they cycle through a few times before we are at peace.

Shes says they are (1) Denial...I am not really upset (2) Anger...it pisses me off that this has happenned (3) bargainbinbg..maybe if I do this it will work out (4) depression..I will never feel better and (5) acceptance..it hurt, it will always hurt a bit but Im ready to move on.

You cant force yourself through the stages but let them happen. Knoiw that there are people reading your blog who will allow you to be you and go through it.

Dont listen to people who tell you to "snap"out of some feeling or you will "snap"mentally

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divine on

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I've heard of those stages before. I'm trying to just go with the flow and pick up what knowledge or revalations I can along the way. Trying to have faith that things will work themselves out, but also trying to figure out what the hell I can do to help it along, to help myself.

I think people that expect others to "snap out" of hard times don't recall what it is like. We all have hard times, but some people seem to forget how difficult it can be. I try not to listen to them too much.

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eyesthebye on

Re: Gar!

Yeah, those stages are just one persons observations from what she has seen. You seem to do really well in the way you are observing things.I like the spunk you approach things with. You dont seem to give up even when you are facing a tough fight.

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halfulkid on

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Hey Liv, what are you so mad about?..

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divine on

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I wrote a whole load about it here. Perhaps you did not catch it.. If you really want to understand the whole thing, don't skip to the green as I suggest at the top.