I have the internet at home now, so I can come on more often!!

But I don't.

Its too freaking hot, someone get me an icepack and a fan.

Well Iv been absorbed in my music pretty much everyday lately.  I'm getting much better, but no one likes my style of music :P  I hang out with people who either like rock or dance, and my style is very much not that.  So I dont know, I'l just keep making it... but no one will listen :P  I am tempted to post some music here, but I don want EVERYONE to have it.  Soo... umm... I'l add it to a comment for people who request it

Life otherwise has been pretty up and down.  Which is funny cos I dreamt about a couple with scars all over their bodies, and supposedly scars represent ups and downs in life... I'm babysitting my nephew this Wendsday again, yippe... I'm not feeling too well.... I'm drinking again, rare times, but decent amounts when i do...

hey thats somthing I havnt talked about here, my alcoholism!  Family history is fairly crazy... There are alot of people on both sides with history of alcohol abuse, and liver problems.  Personal experience has always been drinking since I was VERY VERY young in small amounts (cos my dad is an alcoholic, he would give me sips).  I dont binge drink, I have only been drunk 3 times in my life.  But I do drink alot.  For example, I'l have a drink while doing music, and then over the next 4-5 hours I'l finish the bottle (I have a very high resistance to alcohol apparently)  I'd usually start with a craving, and then continue for the taste.  I wouldnt consider it Alcoholism technically, but I could imagine it blowing up into that.    Anyway, I stopped drinking simply because I didnt feel like drinking like 3-4 weeks ago, and hadnt drunk much at all until this week.  Iv gone through quite a bit over the last while.  (oh somthing I didnt mention, I have no problem drinking alone)

Umm I'm going to go now, couple of things to do, I'l catch you all later, HAVE AN AWESOME DAY (cos its like really nice and sunny here now, I just wish I had someone to go out and do stuff with, like the beach or somthing, I hate doing that crap alone... I probably will though)  Cyas!