Whats up in my life (dot points)

* I almost went to Canada and New York for christmas.  I just wanted to get out of the country all of a sudden, i felt suffocated.  I didnt have work tying me down, and as always I had a cash surplus.  Unfortunatly, hotels and flights at this time of year are way to high for me to be comfortable, so meh...

* I met the person taking over for me in one department at work.  Great guy, he seems fun, shame i'm leaving I think we would have got on awesomely.

* I cant sleep again.  I'm lucky to pull 4-5 hours a night.  Its starting to get rather stale.

* I just bought my piano today.

* Havnt done much with new job yet.  I havnt done much of anything lately.  I'v lost my drive.  I have no one that I"m doing this for anymore.  Am I depressed? No.  Am I sad and lonely?  No.  I just dont see the point of doing anything... why bother?  Why am I trying to build myself up; to look good, to have money, to have a future... why?   Because I want to be admired.  Will I be able to respect the people who wernt there to help me grow?  No.  Anyway, everything beautiful gets destroyed in an instant after a century of growth.

* My social life isnt bad at all. Kinda fun really.  I just dont have the energy to go out anymore.  Went out all Friday night, and it screwed my body clock up...

* Music is great.  I keep meaning to post a link here.  Actually lets see if i have something uploaded somewhere....  yikes i have some real crap floating around...