Oh facebook.  I've never put myself as 'in a relationship' simply because of the awkwardness every time you change relationship status.  That's a big step... comgrats.  

Yeah, I guess being married, I didn't think there would be any changes that would have to be made.  It is, and there's a part of me this morning that can't believe I actually did it, haha.  Thanks!

Well, as bad as it sounds, congrats. It sounds tough, and you are getting on much better than I think I would be in your shoes.

Thanks.  I'm doing better than I thought I would, too.  It's hard to say how you'll react until you're actually put in the situation.  But, I agree, I think I'm making good progress.

i absolutely love your header quote.

i also have been trying to find who i am.

my therapist taught me how to make a pie the other day.

she took a piece of paper and drew a circle. she sectioned a piece off and wrote sleep inside. then she sectioned off another piece and wrote dad inside to represent the amount of time each day i spend taking care of my dad. then she sectioned off another piece and wrote family inside.  then she sectioned off a final slice of the pie and wrote things to do inside it. then she looked at me and said i didnt have very many slices of pie. she told me to make a list of things id rather be doing whenever i find myself in the "funk" ive been trapped in alot as of late. she said when i find myself falling, i need to refer to my list and choose one of those things and do them. it helps me overcome the irriated mood ive been spending a lot of time in as of late, and progress in a postive direction. i have found it helps me. i dont know if it would help you as well, but you may want to give it a try. you told me you used to ski all the time, but it has been years. maybe you need to break out the ski's again.

maybe you ought to try a new hobbie altogether. i know six likes to do pottery. maybe u need to get him to show you how. it doesnt have to be as consuming as any of these projects. i have reading books on my list. thats easy enough, but sometimes its hard for me to focus. but i guess what im trying to say is do anything. the world is now your oyster. go find some pretty pearls.  

Well, I guess I've been kinda doing that already.  I've been trying to keep myself busy.  If I feel down, I do something to occupy myself, whether that's read, watch a movie, go for a walk, run, take the camera out, or call up a friend, whatever.  Filling my time with people and activities that I like has been essential for me.  Good example, I was feeling down on Saturday, so I went crazy working on organizing the apartment, but that only helped a little, so I called a friend and went out for dinner with them, resulting in coming home all smiles.

im glad your doing well in that department.

if you start not too, remember the list.

i found i was in that state before i realized.

i was always irritated. when i talked to my therapist she

said being irritated all the time is a large symptom of depression.

just knowing that helps me to avoid letting myself get there.

dinner sounded like fun.   

Yeah, I know I'm not myself, but the busier I am, the better I feel, so I try to stay busy.

 

Yeah, dinner was very nice

Oh, and the header quote comes from a Lifehouse song on their newest album, "Who We Are."