I can count a million different ways I would rather go than to go crazy. Now I don't mean dementia or bipolar, my grandmother has dementia and some days she has a lot of venom and her words can be a little hurtful, but I convince myself her attacks are not personal and I simply need to accept what I don't understand and let her go through it hoping the next day she is back to her normal self. I also don't mean bipolar, I think that there are way too many people that are diagnosed with being bipolar because a doctor doesn't want to deal with the problems instead of the symptoms. No I am talking about the mother that kills her child and said the voices told her to. I am talking about Son of Sam and that stupid dog. What if they really see this stuff and here I am telling them to go past the ghost and open the door for the officer.

Last nights call was one that occurs every couple weeks and I know why I find it hard to look past, the caller sounds and acts like grandmom. Well over 90 this woman calls at least 4 times a month and her concerns can range from someone ringing the door at 2 am and her not being able to see them, to a man on the top of the house trying to come in through the roof instead of the door or window. You can hear the fear in her voice and when she first started calling you could hear the pity as she said you think I am crazy don't you. I try to calm her down until we can get a officer to the house as well as one of her children.

We are not supposed to have relationships with callers that have the appearance of being unprofessional. We are not supposed to pray with callers whether they ask you to or not. We are not supposed to make false promises like "we are going to take care of this.

We are not supposed to do a lot of things that will make them feel better that may cause the situation to worsen, but like I said WHAT IF